merry christmas and a update

if you were wondering about my disspearance it was because of my 10 day stay at another hopsital for cutting and sucide attempt again. I ended up cutting while i was there i trying to kill myself witch made me have to stay even longer. i am fine now and the scars are starting to heal. but its getting harder and harder to not cut. Sucide plans keep popping up in my head left and right even while im happy. I was thinking about kill myself today idk im just so sick of having to be strong for everyone else but no ones ever strong for me