So the end of this year is going to be tough. I’m getting kicked out of where I live in 8 days (I was told today… YEP 8 fucking days notice to find a new place to move into and move all my shit), and it is almost impossible to find somewhere to rent at this time of year.
I can’t move back with my parents or I would go insane, and a share-house is out of the question since nobody can cope with living with me.
So looks like this could very well be the end of the road. If it gets to the point of being kicked out it will be yet another plunging depth of despair and depression, once which I feel I won’t recover from – I am already on a razor’s edge just contemplating being booted out onto the curb. I literally feel like I’m going to explode I feel so hopeless.
My new years resolution is a resolution of self-destruction. I resolve to kill myself if I get to the point of being on the street. My corpse will be a late Christmas present – maybe with a dead person’s blood on their hands the people who pushed me to this will make some better resolves to never let this happen to someone they knew.
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Sad situation, I am very sorry. Life can be such shit sometimes. I truly hope that you find strength, and if you are unable to, I hope the end comes quickly and peacefully for you friend.
Brother.
I hope you do not get kicked out.
Because if that is the last tstraw, then hopefully change comes.
If you do then I wish you peace and rest.
Do not go with vengeance on your heart.
If you choose to go try to let everything go and actually leave with a free heart.
Look for temporary housing arrangements until you can find a place to rent, but don’t just decide to die, not because of something like this. this can be solved, it just takes a little research, a few phone calls, and yes, you might have to do a little begging, but please don’t do it, not for this..