Since a brief stint of involuntary commitment more than six months ago, I have fantasized a lot about killing or hurting the doctors who locked me up. In my less enraged moments, I settle for slashing their faces rather than killing them. I fantasize that the scars disfiguring their faces will be like marks of Cain showing the world what monsters they are on the inside. Yes, I would go to prison and society as a whole would condemn me as a mentally ill maniac. But I would have a chance to proclaim my side of the story in court. I would tell the world that just because it was legal for the psychiatrists to assert totalitarian control over my life, to bully and threaten the use of force against me, does not make it morally right, or medically effective, for that matter. I would point out that slavery was once legal in this country and defended by judges such as the one would would sentence me; that rape victims in Saudi Arabia can be tried for adultery; and that the involuntary commitment law under which I was imprisoned is just one more instance of a legal system protecting the interests of powerful victimizers.
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Society is sadly stupid and ignorant largely (majority of it).
You are right,
and it’s even another sad truth that a very smart, thoughtful, and intelligent person like you often are suicidal (some even already committed suicides) because of rejected by (this ignorant, stupid) society, feeling alone, can’t relate with any other human beings, sadly..it’s like they don’t belong on this planet..perhaps they belong to somewhere else..who knows?..
And I actually support you if you want to proclaim to the court (& so the world can also see & finally realize it for what it is, about those mental health professionals).
No matter how suppressed it is, the Truth will always emerge and keep sought after and passed-down into another Truth-seekers, even for future generations of humankind to come.
Live and die that worth it.
Live, or Die..like a Hero.
I would not condemn you at all.
Just showing how much of the current psychological profession really is not designed to heal people, more so designed to maximize profits and help out pharmaceutical companies.
There are some who actually take the time to understand and actually help people individually.
I actually know someone like that from here.
So everyone in the field is not as you describe.
I am sorry that you were trearted like that.
Just make sure the ones you put on trial are deserving of it.
Because no innocents need be chastised.
That would be as bad as some of us are treated when seeking help.
Fight for freedom, fight for justice, fight for fairness.
I dunno where they get some of these mental health workers from.I mean some Psychiatrists are some of the heartless people I’ve ever met with no people skills at all.A lot are in it just for an easy ride,coz they know vunerable people are easy to control and bully.Disgrace
Ridiculous (virtually) useless people indeed. I have been seeing psychologists, psychiatrists, therapists, hypnotists and even neurologists for over thirty years now. Useless. All the king’s horses and all the king’s men cannot (and will not) put Humpty Dumpty back together again. 😀
That these nitwits are even considered “doctors” or that their trade is called a “science” is the pinnacle of absurdity.
Now I don’t where many of you are in your life, and I don’t know what “labels” have been applied to you, nor do I know what “treatments” you have received to “fix” what you are, but I can say that the only thing that can “fix” a person is the person themselves.
I have been labeled, depending on the quack in question, with “‘severe recurrent’ Major Depressive Disorder”, Schizotypal Personality Disorder, Schizoid Personality Disorder, Bi-Polar, Anti-Social or Dissociative Disordered, etc, throughout the years. I have put too many of their poisonous cocktails in my body to list throughout my life in an attempt to drug me into believing the delusions that I am “supposed” to believe. I have been known to frequent and be a guest at various “happy hospitals” 😀 All with no result, all with no alleviation or “fixing” of the persistent “me” that always was and will always be.
It is all a sham, a hoax, a silly artificial and useless exercise in futility. But I do have a little fun playing with the docs I must admit. I love to pose endless questions that they cannot, nor could they ever, answer. I love to point out the hypocrisy of their lies about what they “do”. I love to watch these people squirm in their seats when I am not their normal daily fare. That is probably the only reason that I put up with it all.
They (the profession, “science”, or whatever) did once actually do something for the perpetually broken that was humane. Ironically, they stopped doing it because it was deemed “inhumane”. That is what happens with pseudo-sciences like psychology. 😀
The lobotomy was the only technique ever used with any real level of success by the medical “science” for those who could not be “fixed” with drugs or psychotherapy. They said that the patient would lose their personality!!!! LOL
Let me write that again…They said that the person would lose their personality!!!! HAHA…Is that not what “fixing” a mentally broken person is supposed to accomplish in the first place??? It is the mentally defective personality that causes all of the problems in the first place! What idiots!!!
Maybe I am not among the majority here, as this is all very old and familiar for me. I understand that “I” am nothing more than a collection of synaptic systems and neural pathways that have been developed throughout my life. I understand that it is the persistent patterns of beliefs and ideas that I hold that make me what I am. These are entrenched deeper than the deepest ocean. Your mind is simply an electro/chemical biological computer. We program it with “lines” of code, we put in “infinite loops”, and so on throughout our lives. Billions and billions of lines of code. Well my software that I created has so many “lines of code” that make me the miserable fucker that I am, that no little program is going to change my main operating system. It will not happen, it would literally take me an entire lifetime of rewriting “new” code just to get back to square one. And then another lifetime to write enough new code to be “happy”. 😀 😀
However, a lobotomy swirls around the chemicals and “pathways” instantly. “You” no longer exist. The new stirred cocktail of electrons is now “You”. At least it gives you a fighting chance. But the “modern” psychology has no shot at all to fix the completely broken.
But they continue to do what they do anyway. There is good money in it for them whether they have any success or not. 😀 Dude! Why can’t I get a job where it doesn’t matter whether I actually do anything or not and still get paid handsomely? 😀 😀 😀
Money system, for all its supposed to be “goodness” when it’s first created, has now turned into quite a fucked-up system where the Powerful and Elite riches abused and used the system as a tool for enslaving the whole “ignorant and stupid shallow” masses of world’s populations. The saddest and one of the most fucked-up things I think is that these majority of say 80-90% of world’s populations/people/humans they don’t want to sit down, think, ponder, and realize that they’ve all been tricked by these rich elites controllers, enslaving them for the rest of their lives!
But we’re quite ‘lucky’ in today’s generation:
I think our generations has started to somewhat…change.
You’re now starting to see all these unrest “Occupy Movements”, and the many Revolutions against the tyranny and power-control of the rich dirty Elites and government.
It’s starting…people are starting to wake up.
There is (finally) still some HOPE.
I don’t know,.some sources said that this is all the important “signs” that will lead and culminate/climax into THE year 2012 (said to bring the “NEW Era of humanity/Consciousness)…whether u’ll believe it or not, I think it would be an interesting year, and I personally think it’s worth to wait for that year, to see if these ‘amazing’ things would indeed come true or not..
If nothing happen by that year,..I can always still choose Death, anytime.
@irspow: and I also like ur illustration that “Our mind is simply an electro/chemical biological computer”…that’s really interesting!
You could make some good $$$ with it,.but again, only if u’re being persistent and ah, “GOOD IN SALES” (eg: some of the rich bastards even have BAD contents of books, films, etc, but that doesn’t matter in this fucked-up world and system, as long as you’re GOOD at SELLING and MARKETING, and if necessary, just TRICK and make up LIES to the general stupid, ignorant masses of public/gullible world’s populations!!)..
What a fucked-up world we’re living eh?…cuz “It’s all about the fucking Money”. period.
No wonder I hate humanity so much now and often feels like can’t relate anymore to many human beings, sadly, and want to get out of here fast as possible..
@niki,
Sister, if you get into money that is a whole other world of evil. 😀 😀 “Money” always has been and always will be a ridiculous yoke that those who print it and control it use to enslave everyone else. If these kids had any sense they would be blowing up the IMF headquarters. “Wall Street” fat-cats, mega corporations, “governments”, are nothing more than lowly servants of the Money Cartel. The ones who rule the world now are the same people who have ruled the world for thousands of years. In reality though, we put on the shackles voluntarily because we are ignorant, at least the masses, and don’t even know what money actually is. Ask any given slob at random what money is, how it started, what is fiat currency, what is the purpose of fiat currency, what is the difference between “interest” and “usury”, what gives it “value”? That the world’s population are the Cartel’s private plantation is not surprising given the general ignorance as to how enslaved they are to the people who do nothing and receive everything in return. 😀