Did anybody ask me.?
Did i get a say or choice.? ( or was i just born.) If there is a supreme being ( and that’s a big if.? And i asked for life.Then it’s on me.) But if there in’t. Then it’s my right to end it. I’m standing on a crossroad’s. Life? or Death?
I’m choose in Death. So why am i choose in death.? Cause my life suck’s. It’s worthless and empty. I’m worthless and empty. (i’m not enjoying this.) What’s the point of being. If it’s just empty.?
I know all religion’s say suffering is good for the soul. This soul had it.
And i’m choose in the most whacked religion’s out there. To practise. Scientology. ( so my family will think i’m mad or been brain washed.)
Ok suicide is selfish.(I’m selfish) Should i be selflass.?  People say the world is going to end in 2012. The truth is the world will end for each of us when we die. (And i’m going to take my life in 2012 so in a way they were right.) A question. What is point in Being if it’s Empty.? People say life is what you make it. Some time’s it come’s down the hand you were delt.
And how you played it. But if your card’s were shit.?
Where i’m at is so fucked up. To take my life. But i’ve been thinking it all out for a long time.
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You are not “selfish” for wanting to die. Life is a burden, a chore, a sadistic game of endurance of pain and nothing more. That some choose to struggle and suffer endlessly in futility is their choice. However, it is not the only choice. It is your life, if you wish to end it, that is your right. Anyone who says otherwise believes that they own you. Do you believe that other people own you? Of course not. So do not worry about other’s opinions. Would you force someone who wanted to die to live just for you? Of course not. So do not be bothered by others who make such a ridiculous demand of you.
You have more of a right to die than perhaps even a right to live. Like you said, you did not request life, you were just born. Life was thrust upon you. If life is not beneficial and valuable to you, there is absolutely no reason whatsoever that you should not be able to end it on your own terms.
There is no point in existing, that is the pain that all people feel and try not to look at or ignore outright, it does not matter what cards you were dealt. You could have a royal flush in your hand, but if you hate poker it would do you no good.
Everyone’s life is empty. We are alone in the universe between our ears. That is the only reality. EVERYTHING else that “exists” is just a “creation” or “interpretation” from within our own universe, our minds. These things outside of yourself are not real anyway. They are illusions made by your mind.
When we cannot “create” or “see” anything that gives us pleasure or meaning in this existence it is because we are not very good at deceiving ourselves. 😀 That does not make you wrong, a freak, or flawed in any way. This is what you “see”, or rather don’t.
When we “see” nothing in “reality” that we want or desire there is no reason in being. When you realize that there is nothing to “see”, nothing to “be”, and no reality, it is time to move on. I personally believe that such an understanding is what true enlightenment is. That with such understanding comes the natural desire to move beyond this existence of delusion and pain. Sadly “moving on” is not as easy as one would think…
You’re in very good company with how you feel. Many are feeling the same emptiness, it is a difficult time to be on the planet. Cudos to you for signing up. It’s a natural default to be negative but whether you’re able to tap into the truth of it or not…every life has purpose and great value. I understand you feel empty, and worthless but that doesn’t mean you are…there is a huge difference and I hope you can make that distinction.
Btw, there is no such thing as death….you transition into another state….you shift.
http://www.nderf.org/beyond_light_pmh.htm
Best to educate yourself on where you’re going as the more prepared you are the better the trip…like planning a vacation…similar prep. As the writing in the link indicates, if you expect to die, you’ll be very surprised that you’re still alive in a different state..and it behooves you to cultivate as much love in your heart and gratitude for your life…the good, the bad, the ugly, the wounds….all of it. Leave it at that, won’t make sense…just do it and it will benefit you in the long run. Focus on unconditional love. Good luck.
irspow. Word. Thank’s.
Solfsoul How Can i find some proof.?
Cause’s i want to know.