where am i?

my body is here. but i feel like everything else is drifting away. like my will to live and my want to be good and try to make it fades away. i find myself thinking of death more and more every day. im not going anywhere but i recognized that so many thoughts pulsate through my mind. sending a heavy surge into my head making me drift off into this alternate little world momentarily… its ironic though… im thinking about corrupt things but i realized im happier in that world than i am here… because although all that exsists in that world is death and despair… its much better than living in a world sufficated by evil.