I am new here and this is my first post I’ve been looking for a while now for someone to understand what I feel so here I go with my story…
I’ve been living a nightmare since I was a kid but back then I just didn’t care. Everyone was ignoring me like they do now I am a ghost sitting in my house only thinking if I am ever going to have any friends someone to go out with like a normal person.
Even tough I never cared before now I feel abandoned I feel that I could never have friends I am nobody. I meet a girl at school that i think I feel in love with but even that, I know she would never like me she has friends she is “normal”.I am thinking to end this as soon as posible can’t live like this anymore it hurts everytime I go home and sit in a corner of my room crying! Now i’m only thinking about her she might be the only one that would understand me but I just can’t tell her what I feel I am just don’t want to bother anyone anymore beeing useless is not so easy I hope that at least when I’m dead I will find peace. I hope at least you guys understand what I feel. Sorry for my English I’m still learning.
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Please give it a few years before choosing to end it. The possibilities are endless. Your life can get better but only if you put your best efforts into it. The title you’ve chosen, “Why do I even try?” is something I ask myself from time to time. My own answer is because I still have some hope, and I believe in myself enough to try to change my bleak situation into a better future. And no, you are not a ‘nobody’. You are a person who exists somewhere out there in the world with a face and a name and a soul. There are people on this forum who can understand and can help you better than I ever will. Most important of all, you are capable of helping yourself. You just need to tap into that strength within you. So stick around longer. You may find people in life you’ll have a connection with. It can’t happen when you’re dead. Your life is much too precious to lay it to waste. Take care.
I know exactly how your feeling. You can’t think about anyone else but her and shes always on your mind and your emotions are going crazy. Your senses are confused and you feel angry, love, sad, depressed, happy a million emotions all at the same time. What you are feeling is a void inside you and she is the missing piece. You can’t function without her. I get it and I think a lot of us have been through the same thing and I’m here to tell you that what you are feeling is normal.
I’m not going to tell you what to do. All girls are different. Some girls you tell them how you feel will run away, some will think its cute and stay, all girls are different emotionally and physically and some are just play mindgames taught to them by society TV and previous boyfriends. Those girls are afraid and cause huge amounts of drama. Girls like confidence and a guy who isn’t wrong and even if he is he won’t admit it. It doesn’t matter aslong as you make her happy.
You feel insignificant because your a guy and you look at everything logically. You assume because you don’t have any friends that you aren’t normal or worthy of this chick. Girls are illogical in many ways. Some even very pretty and hot, even if they know they are and may very well be hot, think their the ugliest girl in the world. Everyone has something insignificant that they don’t like about themselves – don’t even bother comparing yourself to other people you may have things she doesn’t have and even if you don’t who cares. Girls are illogical.
Don’t write her any poems or do anything crazy or confess how you feel about them unless you think she feels the same about you. Don’t get detailed about it either. You cannot let her feel your desperation. You need to develope not confidence but a fearlessness. If she says no, or get away, or whatever your worse nightmare is you will cry and it will hurt. Theres nothing worse then not being able to embrace what you are feeling, but I will say you will eventually get over it.
If you’ve known her for awhile I would confront her keep it simple. Tell her you like her. Thats it. Don’t text it to her just let her know that you like her whichever way you want.
Don’t hit the suicide button before exhausting all opportunities being outgoing and fearless first. Don’t kill yourself in mid air, let yourself hit the ground hard first before you decide.
yeah man, just know your not alone. we all feel the same way… not in the exact way but we know what your going threw. keep your head up man. you should try sumthin to boost your confidence ‘ such as starting a workout plan. going to the gym. exercise is the best thing and eating healthy. love who you are as a person and just be real. it will go along way. there are alot of girls out there. your probly gonna go threw a few b4 you find a nice girl ‘ we are here to help you. all the best!!!!!
Many people share your feelings.
The fact that you came here to share means that you have hope and you are reaching out.
It is easier for some people to make friends than others.
And you may have social anxiety as well and there are people that you can talk to who may be able to help with that.
Do you enjoy writing, singing, drawing or anything similar?
Maybe use one of those methods to let her know you would like to get to know her better.
It is considerably easier said than done unless you are a certain type of person though.
On the other hand you could immerse yourself in hobbies you enjoy and join clubs or groups that share your interests.
That is a good way to meet people and still stay within somewhat of a comfort zone.
Even maybe join and online group and then see if there are local people who are similar.
All I can see is what seems to be an engaging person who happens to feel different.
Maybe take a free public speaking or acting course or even join the drama club to push you out there.
Sure you will succeed somewhere.
Thank you all for the understanding it really helps me hand in there!