My parents hate me because I want to die, just last night my mother told me to do it, she didn’t care. I had to bury my son, which has completely destroyed me, my wife then threw me out and blamed me for my sons death even though I wasn’t there at the time, hence why she blames me, she has stopped me seeing all of my other kids. I tried to hang myself and failed and my so called father laughed and told me I’m useless and can’t even get that right. I’m still in love with my wife, and always will be! My son that died is the main reason though, it’s coming up to christmas and he can’t open his presents, to be with him for christmas I need o die, I’m not 100% sure when yet but it will happen as I have nothing left to live for
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dont you have other kids? I didnt see you write how your son killed himself, but personally one of the main reasons I want to die is cause my dad never cared about me. I lived my whole first 18 years believing I would meet him and he would love me. When I found him, I was wrong. But if even one of your kids thinks the same, even the smallest amount of time, then when they find you they’ll find someone who does care. Be strong and live your life for them and the possibility of them coming into your life again. Get yourself a career job and work hard at it, be the best and maybe they’ll see you or find you. Don’t live ignoring them though, include there names in your work or something. Example, be a builder, name buildings after them, be a baker, name your pastries after them. i dont know man, im probs way younger then you but I just dont think you should do that when you have kids. I’m sorry you lost your boy, Im sorry you lose your wife. But through that loss maybe you can become stronger for them when they need you, and they will always need you, even when they dont say it.
oh sorry i didnt mean to write your son killed himself, i meant to write i didnt see how your son passed on.
It’s ok mate, he was stillborn at 35 weeks, I had to carry his tiny coffin, I feel your pain, my father is a waste of space too, and i always said I’d never be like that
Your definitely not like him. I don’t think he’d ever admit these sorts of things out loud or even accept them within himself. I sort of stumbled on this site this evening looking for worse things but I saw your post and thought maybe you’d benefit from hearing from a kid without a dad. Its kind of good in a messed up way that you know what its like cause maybe that can help you through this and maybe help you be the man you wanted to be for your other kids. I’m way to young to relate to your loss, I’m sure it’s something that never goes away, but in some way his life must be part of yours and I hope you get through it for the others.