So for a very long time ive been really depressed. about a year ago i became suicidal. 6 months ago i tried killing myself with pescription pain killers. 4 months ago i finaly started to feel better, still bad but i wanted to live. over christmas break ive done nothing, no one cares about me, no one wants to hang out. ive felt so worthless and empty. and today i just woke up and i couldnt stand life. ive just sat in my bed all day, crying and feeling really suicidal again. i was about to call my x and see if she wanted to go see a movie or something to distract myself from life, and thenon facebook i see she just got into a relationship with a really popular football player. i have 3 friends, 1 moved out of the country, one moved across the country, and the other one is on vacation. i just cant take any more of this empty life!
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Hey…..
I know exactly how you feel, but the problem is your focusing on the negatives. There is good in everything but you just have to find it….
Please don’t give up 🙂 Xx.
I feel the exact same thing Josh. I feel so lonely. No one wants to hang out. People are telling me to get social but whenever i try, asking people to hangout, they reject.
Hey Josh,
Everyone has at some time, even for extended periods, felt lonely or worse, that things won’t change.
Trust me, they will.
Remember this, life and reality is never ever fixed and governed mostly by our will (to a fair degree). Things will change, you will meet new people, new friends.
Can i suggest get a hobby in meantime ie something you like doing and if you don’t have much money get a casual job for the summer and buy maybe a trial bike etc?
Negative thoughts are the result of not seeing a bigger picture.
Stay well buddy and don’t think everyone is having the time of their lives over the holidays, trust me they aren’t. And things are never fixed.
Cheers up mate.
AdAs
only my opinion….but i tend to be lonely even in a group of people….it’s not that i can’t find someone to hang out with….rather i quickly get tired of having to watch what i say etc…..
myself i have Asperger’s that was undiagnosed for over 40 years….apparently i just think differently than the average bear….as well i find it draining to keep up my end of social situations…..i have found a few good folks that i can be myself with…but it has taken a long time…
how long have u been depressed….any reason for it or chemical imbalance?….
if i figured out anything it’s that if we could just beat the emotional fatigue and focus on changing things for the better….if only we could beat the apathy….almost like i feel comfortable being miserable….U?