Crying never does a thing, cutting does.

When you are hurt, there is nothing to do , because no one is every there. I struggle with the constant reminder of getting bullied and my parents not understanding. all they say is “Ignore them , they will go away.” Its not easy. i have been ignoring, and if anything, it makes them stronger. I want to fight back but the fear of getting hurt once again stops me. I sit at home and cry every night because of my parents and or school. Then i think, There is nothing that can help. Not crying at least. I start to think, Cutting is my best option. I can’t deal with the arguing and bullying and beating i have everyday. I have to give up. And that’s what cutting is for. I cut and burn and I BEAT myself sometimes. Not because it makes me feel better, but so the pain i am feeling may go away. but sometimes it still is. And that is what I hate. I hate cutting and burning and beating myself up, but that is the only option, there’s nothing better because no one is there . And my guidance councilor is the on who made sure of that. He wont let me go into the hospital or transitions. Why is it his choice? Oh well, looks like I will cut, and burn, and beat myself, until I die, or find help, witch wont happen because again my guidance councilor mad sure no one will ever … Help.