This world is so corrupt and fucked. Entire civilizations run by fucking over the small people who care and want to make a difference. I don’t understand how a person could be physically capable of child abuse, spouse abuse, assault, murder and fucking over everyone for a little bit more money.
I feel like this world has crumbled and I’m wading through the rubble. I see bullshit, fake motherfucking teenagers my age that make me sick. The males throw away all dignity and kindness to try and get with girls. And the girls do the same to get attention they so desperately need.
I cant cry and I had no idea why, but maybe its because I no longer have sympathy for this world.
I couldn’t stop fantasizing about killing myself. I’d get high and that’s all that would cross my mind.
I have only ever had suicidal thoughts, I have never considered planning or attempting it and I can’t imagine how painful that must be. To everyone who has had to go through that I salute you from the bottom of my soul for your bravery.
I still have suicidal thoughts constantly, but hope hits me in waves. Whenever I look into nature or the sky during night time, dusk and day. I remember how fucking beautiful this planet is and how somewhere in my life I forgot it.
My close friends and the beauty of nature are what I desperately hold on to but I’m still fucking lost.
I hope everyone on this site can find something that they can hold on to.
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You get high and have no sympathy for the world? Sounds like you are replicating the same selfish behavior you despise in others. That’s not a criticism, just pointing out that… Maybe the reason why people behave badly is because they are unhappy too… And that creates a cycle of negativity. Thanks for the hope, your right, we all just need something to believe in. I believe in people.
I completely understand where you are coming from. I don’t have any advice, only wanted to say I completely agree with you, the only difference is I’m actually planning my exit as we speak. If you want someone to talk to (without judgment) please email me: blusapphire1989 at yahoo dot com.
It’s actually refreshing to read your thoughts, since I feel many people ignore the voice in their head that is saying the exact same things you are.
Share some of your thoughts.
My belief in anything dies a long time ago.
I still have compassion but for individuals.
There was a lab technician on a Law and Order SVU episode who smuggled bio weapons and sold them to someone.
They asked the tech how could he be comfortable dealing death.
He said it was just business.
He said that the military industrial contractors get rich making these weapons and lobbying for war to destroy the infrastructure of other nations, and in turn get richer by helping the nations rebuild that which their weapons bombed to the ground.
He said after witnessing all of that he just wanted a piece of the action as well.
Sometimes experience in the world can deaden ones emotions in certain ways.
To expect all people to keep giving a care is unrealistic.
I’m glad that you can still see beauty in the darkness. It’s unfortunate when there is no beauty to be seen.
I check the clock,it’s 20:54,13 April,2014.
I have read your post and written it.
Maybe happiness is very strange thing.Maybe you just need some fresh air.
this pops up under a google search for, “fuck this world” nice post. its good to be grateful, not hateful! 🙂 still feel the suicidal feelings, ive noticed they get suppressed when i take t3. i think im hypo. i dont like coming here, just too dark energy for me anymore. id rather find some other distraction, idk why i type in things like that. insecurity? getting a headache, the constant phsycial pain, THAT is why i consider suicide.