Had a dream about another random girl generated in my head that may have been someone I saw at school. All that i can say about her is that she was really cute all around and she liked me and she seemed about 1-3 years younger than me.Â
I was sitting, waiting for my 4th period class and I wasn’t doing anything when the dream began. Someone pointed out to me that some girl wanted to talk to me. I saw a girl sitting with her friend and her friends boyfriend. She had straight brown hair, a tie-dye white shirt and blue skinny jeans. I asked the guy who where to go either the class up ahead or the girl and he said,”what do you think?”Â
I shrugged and walked up to the girl and she looked back at me with pretty brown eyes and she moved a little to give me a seat. I sat down and (my memory is fuzzy due to a very talkative teacher who kept explaining the similarities which were obvious between photosynthesis and respiration.) (As it’s a dream, there are many random occurrences) Two guys kissed each other as they were dating the friend or something similar to that and the friend asked if I wanted to do it too. I denied, and then, (my favorite part), she kissed me, it felt so real and even as I think of it I feel something in my heart, a yearning for a kiss so sweet. She then told me to go up to some guy in the classroom and as I came back to ask her her name and maybe steal another wonderful kiss, my dream blacked out and I awoke.Â
Analysis: I seem to always want a relationship with a cute girl. I have been told that I can have relationships after high school, but the problem is,” What if I want a relationship really badly, one with a cute girl, or very beautiful, or else it will end badly with my first relationship. (somewhat cute but bulky, fat) I have dreamt and wanted a relationship, it’s eating at me, feeding my depression and whatever, and I don’t see the rules of dating after high school instead of now apply.Â
Aftermath: I have had a sense of yearning for a girlfriend, and I hope if I were to get the damn courage and ability to ask a girl out and kiss her and whatever. I can’t though, I have had long hair for a while and now, I am going to cut my hair that’s left on my head. I may post on OSP a pic of myself with long hair and then without.Â
Well, now I want that dream again, because I know i won’t get a girlfriend anytime soon. I hope that I can, but until I do anything, I will make myself more appealing to everyone else rather than what I like, because I can’t even maintain my hairstyle. What a waste…
That kiss, felt realistic, or just the feeling I got from kissing that girl, I guess was so amazing.Â
Anger and irritation setting in. I never feel “bipolar” at my dads house or at school. And some assholes throwing shit at me. Pissing me off. Too bad I hide my feelings inside. Probably going to post this on OSP soon. Since I want feedback on the dream. Sorry I keep writing random shit. It’s 9:47 AM on thursday and I just want It to be 9:55 so we can leave for nutrition break and get the routine back to normal. (Buy PB&J, and water, get US History book, go sit outside class.)
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i hope you find that girl <3
Not very likely and if i did. It wouldn’t matter since I suck at talking to girls at all.
😀 well i still talk to you, so you can’t be all that bad
Well I wish you luck in the pursuit of a nice cute girl for you.
But as many others have said on here, try not to have your happiness depend on another – but I don’t mean that to belittle a girl/boyfriend.
Anywho, well if you have some luck maybe I will, ha.
I am good at texting like how i confessed to my cousin but if i did it in person it wouldnt happen
Do you think some part of you might be gay or bi curious at the very least?
A few things made me think that. I remember a long time ago you said you desired an ‘androgynous’ look (sorry, maybe that was someone else, it was a long time ago)
Guys kissing in your dream, but it’s ‘not really gay’ because they were dating the friend?
Also… I’ve had a few friends who were closet gay, who were raised catholic and as such saw homosexuality as wrong and just could never be comfortable with their sexuality. Those guys always chased the ‘cute, but unattainable girl’, like they were trying to convince themselves that they were hetero. Like your cousin?
You have no interest in the girl, just her looks. Maybe you are just a teenager. Or maybe you are chasing the ‘ideal heterosexual relationship’. Which is most teenage boys anyway.
Have you ever experienced a kiss with a girl in real life that was as electrifying as the kiss you desribe in your dream?
Shot in the dark. But you sound confused at the very least.
Nope not me with the androgynous thing