Hey I am 22 (just turned) male from UK. Basically I am stuck in life. I never leave  the house because I have nowhere to go, I have no friends and nobody to talk to every single day, including weekends. I am currently looking for work and have never had a job yet (been looking 2 & 1/2 years). I am done with education as its neve rgot me anywhere and I can not receive funding to do what I even want to do.
I am stuck in life, I have no future and no friends, no girlfriend, no place of my own, no transport, no money. I have nothing, im grateful for a roof over my head that’s all I have living with parents. I don’t really have anything else and I cannot take this any longer.. the loneliness and deprivation is unbearable, I have dealt with it in some form or other my entire life from being very young growing up. My life is a pointless existence and I don’t know what to do but to end it, I cannot live a shit pointless existence much longer..
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But your life is not pointless
It’s tough for sure…all we can do is make the best choices we can for ourselves. The times are very tough on the planet right now as many people are going through a lot of
unexplainable stuff. Do your best and be as gentle as you can with yourself. Nothing is your fault. Just go easy…if you choose to leave, it’s okay.
We don’t have to continue suffering if it’s too much…we come here to experience and you have free will. Take care.
What do you want to do?
Are there any free internships that you can apply for?
Part time work in the field?
Even as just a contractor or assistant to someone in the field you want to enter just to get your foot in the door?
Are your parents able to provide transport or is there good public transport to get where you may need to go?
As far as financial stability, quite a few people do not get there until later in life. Even with access to education and a job sometimes the loans are horrendous and for the first five or ten years one’s salary is barely enough.
But having something is having nothing and i know my words do not make things easier.
Is there not one person you can talk to?
We are willing to chat with you here and hopefully that will be enough to ease your loneliness somewhat.
Jungle, what type of things do you enjoy doing?
Is there any way you can immerse yourself in them or even possibly think of a way to earn money for doing them?
You could try doing some volunteer work. It would give you some experience, something to put on your CV and give you a reason to get out of the house and meet people. It’s something to think about anyway. Good luck.
The main thing is I just want to be able to leave the house everyday and go somewhere. Because currently (and for years) I have spent full 24 hour a day periods stuck in this one room. Like today I woke up at 11pm I have no sense of structure whatsoever in my life. There is nowhere around that is worthwhile leaving the house for. I live in a small town and there’s pretty much nothing here. I really have nothing in my life, I just want to find a job so I can get out of this horrible fucking place, but I live in the worst area in the whole of England to find work.
Aside from not being able to find work, the biggest depression comes from zero words spoken everyday, zero social interaction and just sitting in front of a TV or computer from the moment I wake up till when I go to sleep. Everyday is exactly the same. Then I think to myself fuck this ive had enough but then soon remember there’s nowhere to go..just no opportunity. There’s like a cinema or a few pubs that is all. If I did choose to go to one of them then it would have to be alone. I really cannot live like this much longer, ive put up with it for too long. The depression and loneliness is too much to bear.
As for the volunteer work well, I did look at that before and although ive never liked the idea of working for nothing, plus id have to pay busfayre to get there, I looked anyway and the choices were really bad.. litter picking etc. My life or lack of it is pathetic, it always has been ive always felt lacking my entire life, I need it to change before thoughts of suicide takes me over again, its happened before and I overdosed, sadly I survived.
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Look. You think your life sucks? You haven’t given anything much of a chance. You make excuses not to go to the pub or cinema or try volunteer work. Honestly, it’s not glamourous, but you said yourself, you’ve been looking for work unsuccessfully for 2.5 years and you’re not even willing to try volunteer work because you don’t want to pick up litter? Honestly, if someone is going to complain about picking up litter when they aren’t doing anything else to make the world a cleaner/nicer place, well, I wouldn’t give them a job either because I would assume they are lazy or had a bad work ethic.
Do something. You have plenty of options and not much to lose.
guess what?
a year later.. life exactly the same. EXACTLY the same.