I am 15 and three of my grandparents have died. I am so scared; I dont want anyone else to die especially my parents. I hate everyday it is so unbearable and it kills me to live everdy
I wish I had never woken up at all, I dont want to live with the pain! why is everyone I love dying?! I am a good person and I love and respect my family. I feel like a shadow of my former self, I cant spemd time with friends because I am jealous of them and I cant enjoy the things I used to with my Dad without thinking that one day he will be gone amd I wont be able to do those things again! ARGH!
I think the world of my parents and I cannot bear to loose them:( they are healthy
and my Grandparents smoke and drank alot which killed them :/ but it is killing me! nobody understands what it is like to keep living with the pain- I cant escape death at all and it makes me sick!!! HELP I am so scared!!!
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Theres nothing anyone can say or do to help with this… You just have to understand (and its hard) that death is apart of life. We live; and we die. I know it’s hard to go through, I know.
But time does help seal these wounds… I promise. You cannot let the thought of someone dying consume you, especially when they are in good health.
Perhaps you may want to find out what we call death really is and ask yourself what your own relationship to crossing over really is. Heavy thoughts for a 15 yr old…but if it’s impacting you in this way, you may feel better in the knowing that your loved ones have not died…they have simply transitioned into a non physical place…they let go of their physical body because it was time for them to do so…they made that choice on some level.
It’s a very natural occurrence…there is only life after life…life is a continuum that goes on and on and on. The best clips I could suggest are on youtube by Abraham Hicks. It’s channeled material…may be a bit woo woo for some people but it’s information that would be beneficial for you. Is there someone you can share this with? Can you talk to your folks about this? You are not being abandoned, when you come to the understanding that you are experiencing for a reason and none of this is in no way meant to hurt you, you’ll find peace with things. I hope this helps you. At 15, try to be gentle with yourself because thinking as you are is literally beating yourself up…it’s a challenge we all have, being good to ourselves with our own thoughts…but I believe you can…Good luck, and take care. I’ll say a prayer for you.
i try to think of death as just an eternal sleep where your mind can be at complete and utter peace, you don’t have anything to worry about you can just rest
“nobody understands what it is like to keep living with the pain” — well that’s not the case at all. You’re not the only person to have loved and lost; every single person on the planet has gone through it. It’s not pleasent, but losing people is inevitable, and the sooner you realize that, the sooner you’ll stop feeling however you do. Enjoy the time you spend with everyone you love, so that you don’t feel as if you’ve wasted a minute of it.