Thinking about Hanging myself Makes me cry or jumping off my window or a bride. bleeding out in the bathtub. Im in a realationship but still alone. She tells me think Positive and everything gets better but its going over a year now. and i now how much longer i can go on. it hurts so much to see happy couples :,(
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I know it’s hard to think positive thoughts, but I would follow her advice. Don’t over-think it, though. Start with small things.
Enjoy the small things in life. Take a walk in the park and listen to the birds or watch the rain fall outside. Watch a funny movie or bake a cake. 🙂
May I ask why you aren’t happy with your girlfriend?
well i have a realationship with her since one year and never did see her. i talk alot with her on the phone. and shes always sick thats mostly the reason why we cant she. she ist most of the time sick because she was anorexic and had bulimia . everybody tell be to break up. she told me we can see each other when she done with her problems. her problem is she feel annoyed. but she want to. man i feel so lonley i cant take this lonleyness any longer 🙁
I see.
Eating Disorders are very hard to overcome alone. Is she getting professional help? I suggect she see’s a therapist. Sometimes, just eating normally doesn’t help. She’s needs to find the root of the problem and start there.
I see how you’re lonely. Not seeing someone you love for a year can make anyone feel lonely, but think about how lonely she would be if you killed yourself. I’m not trying to make you feel guilty, but if you love her, you wouldn’t want her to be in that kind of pain. Maybe you two could use a webcam to talk with eachother to make the conversations more personal.
hmm she dosent like doing webcam :/ and yeah i dont want to dissapoint the people who live me. but i cant stand it when ppl tell me to break up. im strong for her i cant leave her alone but i also cant go much on further. its so hard i dont wanna wake up alone i dont wanna sleep alone. my beds so big empty and cold. she told me i should stop cut myself otherwhise she would be mad at me 🙁 but sometimes i do it just to let all the pain out of my body. we had so many fights so many good times i was always there for her even when her father left the family because he cheated on her mother wirth a girl thats the same age as my girlfriend (sick bastard) also what makes me sad is that my best friend wich i know since i am 11 years old now im 21 back stabbed me when i was in another state he started to flirt my girlfriend even though he knew it we would have a realationship ( the time when we meet eachother) the other my girlfriend chatting with him : She : im just stuffing in some chocolate and she : i know something else what i can stuff in my mouth. i broke the friendship with him and feel only but hate for him. i never thought he would do something like that. I wish my life would just be normal… a normal realation ship like everbody else i just wanna be happy with her…why is life so hard? there as song i really can realate to i listen to this song all summer and always cried at the heart part
Lost myself in an endless goodnight
Kept the time by the patterns of the streetlight
Couldn’t get it right
I could never get it right
Sadly, this is a wasted conversation
Lost on you, lost on you
This is a test of my patience
Your blue eyes are so cruel
I can’t escape all the things we’ve said
I’ve takin years off my life with the weight of regret
Now there’s nothing left
There is nothing left to lose
Shouldn’t I feel alive?
I swear that I’ve tried
To be alright
To sleep at night
Shouldn’t I feel alive?
The night fades with a breath of sunshine
I’ll do my best to adjust to the morning light
I cant keep my place
Feels like I’ve been awake for days
Sadly, you turn away and now I’m faced
With the harsh truth, the harsh truth
My cold heart is a place where true love cannot bloom
Shouldn’t I feel alive?
I swear that I’ve tried
To be alright
To sleep at night
Shouldn’t I feel alive?
There’s static on the airwaves
I’ll try to find the light through all this haze
I can’t find the words that I’m trying to say
So try to forget me as I walk away
[X2]
Shouldn’t I feel alive?
I swear that I’ve tried
To be alright
To sleep at night
Shouldn’t I feel alive?
I swear that I’ve tried
To be alright
To sleep at night
Shouldn’t I feel alive?
If you don’t want to break up with her, then don’t. Do what you want, no matter what people tell you to do. No one can make you break up with her. How far away is she?
Cutting does let out the pain, but it is so unhealthy. Maybe you could find another way to cope that would be healthier. Try to take all the pain and write out your feelings or maybe draw a picture. Anything besides hurting yourself is a good thing.
I know it’s not easy to do, but I would try to find better friends. Anyone who would go behind your back is not a friend.
I’m sorry you’re going through all of this. You seem like a great guy. Yes, life is hard, but it can also be worth it in the end. Just keep thinking of your girlfriend and try to stay strong for her if you can’t for yourself.
I love the lyrics. What is the name of the song?
i use to feel that. but then i really really fell in love. he was the only one to make me smile and happy and laugh….we broke up yesterday becuz it was long distance and his parents are making him sell his iPod.. the only way he can talk to me…. i miss him so much…. it hurts to much
well she lives in the district next to me but at the end of it. Yeah i really need some new friends. i will stay strong thanks for your help and your good world it really helps me to think more positive. the song is a breath of sunshine – scary kids scaring kids
oh and morgie222 i feel so sorry for you. .__. well he dosent own a pc or you? then if you could talk via msn or headset. 🙁