ever since i started cutting and having suicidal thoughts, ive acted diferent. everyone picked up on it and with in a week everyone i knew, was aware of my depression problems. i get so aggravated and depressed when they follow me around and wont leave me alone. im not evem allowed to be in my room by myself. i guess this is all my fault. i dont understand them. im doing ok, yet they still follow me around. why? i know this is my fault, just another thing to pile up on my depression. i dont want them to be scared for me, it stresses them out and then it stresses me out even more. what am i going to do?
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Your friends and familly are obiviously extremely concerned about you. Try to think and speak positively (harder done than said). When your friends/ familly notice that you are acting less depressed, you can explain to them that you don’t need them following you. Try to distract yourself from suicidal thoughts. Do the activities (eg: games, movies, sports etc.) you like best and talk more to your friends/familly. Try to stay calm, and try not to get bored.
I don’t think there is anything you can do about them caring and being scared for you. Maybe, you could explain to them that you need some space, because them suffocating you is not helping. And it is not your fault, at all
People don’t realize the best help they can be is to be positive for you…send you good vibes. Be normal, cause you/we already feel odd with what’s going on and just normal positive behaviour would be lovely. You could tell people that if you feel.
I guess it all depends on what type of person you are, but I would just say “I would like to be alone for a while.” If they don’t leave, an patient but irritated stare is generally enough for them to see that I am going to sit there until they leave. That generally worked for me, but it probably depends on them knowing that you really will wait as long as it takes.
But they are scared. I think that does mean that they would help if you asked them. Right now they are probably scared because they don’t know how to help you. Maybe saying “If you want to help me, can you please leave me alone?” would work.
At least you have people who actually care about you. I know it can be very annoying that they follow you around, its like they don’t trust you. There are a lot of people who are suffering from depression who have nobody who shows they care. I know its not much consolation, but at least you have some people who do care enough about you and they show it.
Same thing with me. I came home from the hospital I found me bedroom door without a lock and new rules. I am not allowed to shut my door except to change. I can’t be in my room unless I am changing or going to bed. I am not allowed to be alone. I am happy that at least they don’t go through my room, so they don’t see the knife in my nightstand. I think it is normal for people to react that way. My best friend called me crying because she was so scared I was going to kill myself.