im tired of all this shit 🙁 i want it all just to go away…………..i dont really care how…..but it would kinda be nice if it was now…………i look back at the notes i wrote on my phone and i think to myself……………why dont you just put your missery out now……is it really worth going threw all this pain and suffer…..will things actually really get better at the end of this mest up world be calll life…….i do believe there’s a heaven and i do believe there is a hell but i feel like the one below is kinda pulling me down while God is trying to pick me back up……….am i suppose to feel happy am i suppose to be happy with this pain and suffer……i honestly dont know how im suppose to feel right now…..i kinda just wanna end it right here right now….i look at the scars on my wrist and think this wasnt me before…so why is it me now
?? then i remember it was because of that one person putting to much fucking presure on me that i couldnt just be myself no im not gonna blame everything on her but she is kinda the reason im where i am today…..yeah i stopped for about 6 months but it seems like its haunting me and its repeating itself by me having the feeling to cut and stuff , yeah i know it wont make anything better but , i dont know why i do it……….do i want to stop?? yeah , have i tried to stop?? of course but , its not working…..am i suppose to be this person cause if im not then please just take the wrong person i am away and bring me back the person that yeah has problems but not to where i feel / do the shit that i do………………………..i guess in the end im just tired of all the nonsense i get myself into even when i dont mean to put myself in that possition it just happens,,,,,,,,,,,,,,srry if it doesnt make any sense i skipped around
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I got tons of stuff on my phone that I read from time to time. I see what I want but I wonder why I haven’t taken action on it yet.
yeah , like i would try and do something but im just scared that if i do imma do something wrong and make things worse
dood, i know how it feels to be hurt by a girl… my ex… i broke up with her… than i realized i broke my own heart… and i know how you feel about cutting, but you dont know why… you are not alone in this world..
yeah my ex broke up with me and he hurt both of are hearts but he broke up with me cause he moved to the north side of san antonio kinda and im on like the south east and stuff and its pretty far to just go and try and see him everyday :/ it was to much pain even then when were already use to seeing each other everyday and stuff i mean even during the summer we saw each other like 3 times a week and stuff but idk 🙁
God puts certain people though suffering so they can relate to those in need. Through agony, you learn how to empathize with the ones who need help most. Maybe that’s your life’s purpose.
maybe but even when i dont go threw something that someone else may go threw i understand pretty good cause i try and imagine myself in there shoes and i can kinda feel there pain and how hard they have it so i try and help as much as i can but sometimes im scared of telling them something and it may just make things worse or not even work at all