Sometimes, it’s the small things that push you over the edge and make you look at suicide…First of all, the main thing that’s bugging me, my son got sick, and the doctors don’t know what’s going on with my baby. And I can’t help myself, much less him… So, he has lost 5lbs in 10 days, and I can’t get him to eat. Well, finally in the last couple of days, he has started feeling better. So, that’s one thing that has straightened up. I recently got out of a serious long-term relationship that ended well enough… And we are still roommates. The problem is that we are too close. And she started dating a man that works with us. Yes, I work with her, live with her, ride back and forth to work with her… It’s complicated. But, we are trying to be friends, because we have been in each other’s lives for a long time. And my son loves her. But she wants to tell me that she is still in love with me, and she wants to be with me, and he annoys her, and blah, blah, blah. And she hates anyone that I express interest in, and she tries to drive them off… And she is telling the man she is seeing something completely different and she’s lying to me about it. Like, last night she talked pure shit about him, and he “texts her too much”, but the first text sent today was from her to him.. (Yeah, I looked.) So after we ended, I began seeing this guy at work, and things were amazing for the longest time. Then, I find out he’s married, but “in the process” of divorce. Ok, I can deal with that… No, not so much. See, his wife was about to deliver their second child… Nice, huh? So, of course, I stopped talking to him. Then one of my best friends decided that it was time for him to ask me out. We had ONE date, and he thinks it’s appropriate to tell me who I can talk to, how I can dress, and otherwise tell me how to run my life. So, I told him I’m not that kind of girl… He keeps pushing me away and then pulling me back in. And maybe it’s where I’m so damn depressed anyway, that I’m allowing it. If I can’t have her, I want him. And I do love him, and I want to be his woman, but his comment is “Why would I settle for ONE when there is such variety out there to choose from?” Or my personal favorite, “You can’t turn a whore into a housewife.” But, he told ME he had feelings for me, and he brought the whole “L” word into it. And then, I recently started talking to married-dude again, cause he left his wife, and I like to talk to him, because he says things that make me feel cared about. Right now, I don’t feel like there is a single soul that cares whether I live or die. I don’t feel like if I died tomorrow that anyone would care. I’m cutting myself pretty badly, and I’m unable to eat. I haven’t eaten without throwing it back up in weeks. I need to find the courage to rise above all of this, or to bite the bullet and just do it…
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Or maybe find some new friends – ones that don’t mess you around like your current set seem to do.
That may be a good idea :/
first and foremost – FIRE the ‘boyfriend” – anyone who starts a relationship dictating will only get worse the more you acquiesce … i have a male friend who acts in the exact same manner .. he started dating a woman who i’ve know for years and although he is a friend of mine – I immediately called her when I found out hey were dating to warn her … she gave him a week and sure enough he did exactly as predicted … and for once someone followed my advice – she dropped him like a hot potato
advisor dawg
Thanks everyone for telling me to get rid of this trash that I’ve collected. I’m trying so hard to get my head above water. And Dawg, I wanna fire him. </3 I just don't know if I'm strong enough.
It may be necessary for you to find a new circle of friends.
The roommate situation may be one that you have to deal with, but in your emotional state you are a target.
And predators pick up on that and entangle your feelings.
Let them go until you find yourself.
It is not easy but until you find you they will keep causing you pain.
I’m telling you – if you approach it from the position of being an employer you’ll be so disgusted you won’t be able to do it fast enough 😉
you CAN do it … and there are good honest guys out there who WILL respect and honor you – there is zero redeeming qualities in employing a control freak … FIRED
trump dawg
Know what? You’re absolutely right. I’m going to get this loser out of my life. <3
good for you! … Anytime I feel my heart/feelings are clouding my judgement, I put myself in the role of an employer and look at the situation/person objectively … I weigh the Job/task being done against what the requirements for the job/task are … and when the “performance” is how you describe … they get FIRED … Just. Like. That.
period dawg
Because YOU are a business – and your business produces happiness … the more happiness you produce, the more your business PROFITS!
profit dawg
Has anyone ever told you you’re amazing Dawg? 🙂
everyone know dawgs is amazing 😉
… even us old lazy broken dawgs … rub my belly please LOL
trick dawg
😉 Well, I’m glad you know.