I haven’t done it in 5 days and I feel really strange. I’m so stressed right now, and my anxiety levels are super high, and I’m depersonalizing left and right and I kind of really want to cut. But for some reason I can’t bring myself to pick up the safety pin. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
I should feel good, free, normal. I don’t, though. All I feel is anger pent up inside me and I don’t know what to do with myself.
So my question is this:Â Is making tiny, harmless slashes across your skin to relieve stress REALLY worse than bottling up all the angst and sadness and hate and rage inside of you and just letting it sit there? Because its not fun, keeping all your emotions on the inside. You just feel confused, empty and useless all the time.