i haven’t wrote in a while..
i started going to see my counsellor. its been making me feel a bit better. the other day i went bathing suit shopping… and I’m happy with the way my body looks for once!
i haven’t had school in a week. i go back monday. really don’t want to tho. I’ve been enjoying the amount of sleep I’ve been able to get. go to bed at 3:30am wake up at 12:30pm. its been nice.
i still hurt a lot! and i still find myself crying at night. tho not as much as i use to.
my counsellor suggested other things i could do then cutting myself. like squeezing an ice cube in you hand till its gone. or snapping an elastic band on your wrist. (ive been doing that) she also suggested started a journal. so I’ve been writing in it a lot..
i recently got a hair cut. that i actually really like. its short, normal girls wouldn’t get it that short. but its very short. and then my mom let me get purple in my bangs. i just love it. tho i know some people at school will say i look like a guy. i don’t care. but to be, i look like a girl. and thats all I’m going to worry about right now is that i like it, no one else.
i really think i have a bit of bipolar becuz when i started to write this i was happy, but now i just want to cry.. and i don’t know why.
also my piano teacher said i may have arthritis in my hands and fingers… they do hurt a lot after i play piano, or write a lot…
well i think thats all i have to say..