sorry not sure if this is a right place to be in..
umm my names max, i just had another fight with my dad, i cant even run away or have my own time..its so small here i have no choice to get this shit..
idk if i wanna kill myself..i think im just too scared, cuz im tired of this, i see no point in living anymore, everyone arround me smiles and i join them, but in my room i cant stop shredding tears..i try to explain simple stuff to people and they just scream over me like they know everything..nobody understands me..
everyones putting pressure on me to graduate and go to university and all, but honestly i dont even give a damn about my life anymore..is that normal? like i should probobly be working my ass off as we speak, but i dont, and idk why..people tell me to set a goal, my only goal is to set a goal…i just wish i could move out alone..
i play this game called runescape and all, i talk to 2-3 friends there, but they dunno what to do with me, so they try to cheer me up..but its not enough, is someone else feeling like me?
im not the type to hurt myself..i see no point, not yet anyway, ive never tried my friends at school and all just think im happy, nobody knows im like this, i think they’d find it pathetic..only 2 runescape friends know, and now you all
im just tired of it all..im not saying i will kill myself, im too scared to actually do it, im just saying i want to, and i know its not normal..i normally help people, and now im the one who needs help..
my escape is school where i can forget about home, but it just reminds me of what life is coming to, since i dont think ill graduate in 4 months
so when im home i play runescape, trying to forget about everything, i built myself a life in there, and im pleased with it
if anyone out there knows how i can get better..please..help me
sor