I’ve been struggling for so long.
I’ve battled self harm for almost a year now. I can’t stop.
My parents found out, but they don’t know the truth and don’t know how bad it is.
I feel so alone.
I’ve attempted suicide three times. Three fucking times.
None of my friends ask me how I’m doing. Not even my boyfriend asks me anymore.
I’m so alone here. I’m so scared for what I can do to myself.
If I pick up that razor again, I’m afraid I’ll go too deep, cutting something important.
But the sick thing is, I want to.
I do badly want to end it all.
Stop the suffering. Stop the torture.
I want to die
I need help
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You do need help. If you broke a leg you would go to the hospital. This is the same thing but just with a different body part. Admitting you’re sick is the strongest thing anyone in your position can ever do. Tell your parents you want to get treatment for your depression.
You’ve fought so long and so hard now. It’s no time to stopping fighting. Be the fighter I know you are and win this battle. I know you can. You’re so strong. You’ve made it this far. You can make it through anything. Feel free to email me at farmerstrong13@hotmail.com if you wanna talk.
Hi there,
I’d be lying if I say I think you’re fine or not depressed. I’ve just recently found out I’m suffering from depression (I’m sure you understand how true it is to use the word suffer) I’ve self harmed too and I totally get where you’re coming from. Do you have a psychologist or someone in that field to talk to? If you don’t than I HIGHLY recommend you do! I know that it’s probably REALLY hard to even consider it but it’ll be SOOO much more worth it. I was scared to tell my psychologist that I was suicidal because I’m a minor and they have to tell you;re parents. If you’re a minor don’t worry about it. They wont risk the trust in your relationship to tell them all the details. They more than likely will tell you’re parents(not going to lie to you) but ONLY if they think when you leave their office that you can’t be safe. If you think they’ll ‘lock you up’ , more than likely they wont unless you have a plan already made. You can do a safety contract where you either have to sign a contract or keep a verbal contract saying you wont kill yourself. They also wont tell your parents about your self harm unless you do it with suicide intention. And if you;re feeling alone and no one listens, I’ll listen 🙂 Please talk to someone in proffesion if you don’t already, you won’t regret it. Feel free to email me if you ever feel like no one is listening or if you feel alone. email- loveislouderstaystrong@hotmail.com