i hate school

so tommoro i have to go back to school at home im trying to keep a smile on my face when im at home but really inside i just feel so alone i just dont think schhool is for me i hate going im always scared to get up in the morning and going to 1 2  3 4 5  6 period eveeryday. dealing with people around that i know are better skinner than mee i hate seeing that:( i just dont know what to do in my back of my mind its telling me cutt it out of you but i kno thtas bad i dont want to go in my sisters path .my sister is 23 she attempted suicide 3 or times already once she cut her vain she had to go to the hospital after that the mental hospital the second and 3 third time was cutting and took over 20 pills  thank god  she lived through all this ….. i remember one time she was in the mental hospital during  christmas that was the worst one i had this is why i dont wanna walk in her footsteps.  just dont what to  go to schhool my friend she just told me just got to connutation schhol with me or red cross  sisnce i miss alot of school someone just help tell me im so lost and angry  scared about going to schhol tommooro !!!