My heart is breaking. i cannot do this anymore. i’m just a shell of who i was, im no longer there, so why do you try to keep me here, when it’s not me anymore? my demons have overpowered me, the voices in my head have overpowered me, and the people have too….
i cannot keep living this way, i will not survive the physical and emotion pain anymore. im sick off this. i cant keep living. it hurts to wake up in the morning. i wish i could be strong like him, but i cant. It hurts to breathe. I wish i could just get away from the pain and the bullshit.
the hopeful lies he told me only made me hold on for so long. i’ve lost all sense of reality and sense of realness. i hurt myself to know im still alive. this is no way for me to live, i am not happy here, i want to be free, and be with him again. no one would ever care if i was gone, and im fine with that.
everyone saw how much i was hurting and they didnt do anything… thats ok though, i dont need anyone, i have the two things i need, my blade and pills…. such a good pair… im done…. im ready to leave… no one would ever try to stop me, to try to talk me out of it….
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Except me 🙂 I dont know you or how you feel but hearing your story I, feel for you. Im not even going to pretend I know what your going through…But I know someone with so much love for anyone is worth still having on earth…if ya need to talk please email me…Im here…and I do care… nobody should have to feel this way…