i know i do. just having a golden secret is nice. one that if performed correctly can never be questioned and may give me what i’m looking for.
or maybe it’s just because i feel like it’s something productive for me to do since i’m not sure how to go about my plans yet.
it also makes me remember that nothing matters, which i always hope will help me live a more pure life. (just being honest with myself and not giving a fuck around others, which sort of seems to be working.
i’m crazy, maybe you are too:) i like feeling bad for some reason, i mean unless i can actually feel good like i used to, this is the next best thing. in the middle never seems to leave me content. so funny, my mom just walked in here while i was typing this. i know it’s impolite, but i hope me being dead will make her less of a bitchy person. i won’t see, but someone should
I sometimes feel euphroria.
But most of the time i’m just okay with the idea of suicide.
But the only downside of suicide are the consequences of suicide because they are still (supposedly) big if i would do it right now.
So i need to just wait a little longer, whenever i feel that i wandered far enough from society including my mother, father, (older) brother, (younger) brother, (little) sister and ofcourse my friends (kidding i do not have friends.).
And when i wandered far enough from society, nobody would be harmed if i would kill myself.
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i know i do. just having a golden secret is nice. one that if performed correctly can never be questioned and may give me what i’m looking for.
or maybe it’s just because i feel like it’s something productive for me to do since i’m not sure how to go about my plans yet.
it also makes me remember that nothing matters, which i always hope will help me live a more pure life. (just being honest with myself and not giving a fuck around others, which sort of seems to be working.
i’m crazy, maybe you are too:) i like feeling bad for some reason, i mean unless i can actually feel good like i used to, this is the next best thing. in the middle never seems to leave me content. so funny, my mom just walked in here while i was typing this. i know it’s impolite, but i hope me being dead will make her less of a bitchy person. i won’t see, but someone should
Well, kinda. Maybe.
I sometimes feel euphroria.
But most of the time i’m just okay with the idea of suicide.
But the only downside of suicide are the consequences of suicide because they are still (supposedly) big if i would do it right now.
So i need to just wait a little longer, whenever i feel that i wandered far enough from society including my mother, father, (older) brother, (younger) brother, (little) sister and ofcourse my friends (kidding i do not have friends.).
And when i wandered far enough from society, nobody would be harmed if i would kill myself.
~ Alexander