Please I need someone to help me

My dad has turned my entire family against me, for the past 17 years I have never been good enough for him. He always treats me like shit. No matter what I do I’m always a **** I’m always worthless I’m always a *****. This morning I woke up he didn’t even acknowledge me, the first thing he said was I was a miserable fucking slob. He has no character at all. He has no honar because he lies, he has no courage because he manipulates. He is everything I’m not. Today he was bashing me for two hours, I walked in on him calling mean names (which is an understatement) to my mom. And now my mom is starting to agree with him. She said if I don’t change by the time I’m 18 (October) I’m going to have to find a new place to live. But he makes It seem like I’m shit when I’m not. I’m going to be the first person to graduate in my family. I can’t take this abuse anymore. I feel so worthless. Why is it always the fucking dishonorable that get by in life? And when ever I try and stand up for myself he always threatens to beat me up. So I say do it. (he never does) I wish he would though. So I can fucking kick his ass. I can’t stay in this place anymore. He is the worst kind of person. The only reason he hates me is because I’m smart. He thinks girls should shut up and clean.