Smiles are contagious

Do you ever smile, just because you want to brighten someone else’s day? I do. I smile at random people at the grocery store. I smile at people in the halls at school. I smile at people I don’t even know all the time. And you know what, smiles are contagious. 99% of the time, the random person I’m smiling at smiles back. I try to smile at everyone, because I never know what battle they are facing. You never know who desperately needs reassurance, and a smile gives a person that. One smile. One smile has so much power. It can make a person’s entire day. I am falling apart, I really am. I watched my family fall apart, I stopped talking at home, then I starved, forced myself too throw up, I cut too. I still starve, eating is control for me. I am constantly in the counselors office at school because everyone is so concerned. I think about suicide every single day. I’ve gotten really close, it’s so tempting. Sometimes the pain is just too much. But the people I smile at, they don’t know that. They know none of it. Do you know how good it feels, to have someone look at me and think I have it all together, to think I’m so happy? It makes every smile worth it. My advice to you… SMILE, even when all you want to do is cry. Sometimes brightening someone else’s day, helps to brighten your own. I owe it to the people who love me to stay here. So I’m going to continue to fight… I’m going to fight every single day until the day I can look my friends in the eye and tell them that they saved me. I’m only 16, it could take a while. But I’m going to get through this.