And I’ve lost, I took a gamble and tried getting my campus involved for the first time in the university elections. However personally I have won! I’ve spoke to 1000’s of people, taking the time to explain what a students union is and connected with people that have been unrepresented, neglected and forgotten for too long. The guy that won was a unknown, I am so glad that someone new to the Union won it!
Today as I write this I am going fail my dissertation, 40 credits wasted, and without a miracle 4 years of university wasted. Its not all been bad, at least I’ve set some new standards. Had a laugh, and pretty enjoyed my last few weeks (well parts of it anyways). I’m thinking about combining multiple methods just to make sure, I’d hate to do it, and then fail. I hate failure full stop being honest though.
I have no future even if I wanted one. Its sad how you can give so much and the world just carries on.
21 days to go…
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I’ve read some of your other posts… and I see your countdown is ongoing… and I also see that you’re being productive and acting with a purpose. I guess my question is why you think you have no future. Sometimes what we give to the world isn’t recognized… but we’ve still made a contribution. In just this post, you worked to educate your campus and connected with those who had been overlooked… Why stop your efforts?
What are the reasons for you wanting to kill yourself?
Out of interest, is it not possible to redo a dissertation if you fail? I appreciate it’s not an option for you anyway, since you’re going to kill yourself, but I’m just curious as to whether it would actually be possible to have another go at it.
What are you waiting for get working on it. I used to stay up until the early hours sometimes. Don’t stop until the work is done. You might get a lower than expected Mark but rarely to that fail you.
Your dissertation I mean, not the other thing. Oops.
Out of curiosity, what is the subject of your dissertation? I agree with Duke of Marmalade… I’d work on it as much as you can. The library, coffee, and I became good friends…
Duke, you have perfectly illustrated the point that things can always be redone:
You failed miserably with your first post, but you were able to have another attempt and got it right second time round.
Of course, Sod’s law says that countingdown will only read your first post and will rush off and kill himself.
Not all of us are trained to use the force ben.
Try and blag an extension. I blag everything. Get a doctors note.
Good point. I would suggest he tries an old Jedi mind trick:
‘You don’t need to see my dissertation. This isn’t the dissertation you are looking for. You should just give me an A grade. Move along.”
Now if only I could… Mind tricks are amazing.
Dissertation is on Animal Pain. The problem is not in the work, but a paperwork not being signed by the correct people so not smething I can fix. If I fail I can resit however the mark is capped so basically I won’t achieve more than the lowest class degree you can get (like a 3rd).
Its weird really, I see nothing past 21 days from now (even though my calender for events in April is totally full). To be fair each and everyday I think about the end, and it relaxes me and takes away all my anger. I don’t see myself as having a place in this world, its so full of evil that even if I spent my whole life trying I couldn’t make a mark. If I’d won the election I would have still only had 21 days, however I would have shown that I could do it, and that people really are sick of the way things are going.
I hate the idea of being raped in tax, NI, and debt because “everyone else does it” and to be honest think its about time for change!
Ok, maybe I should give an example…
The harder I work, the more I earn, the more the government takes. Yet those that don’t work, claim benefits and sit at home all day claim that a £500/week cap on benefits is too low. That is £24000 a year tax free!!!! If I was earning £24000 a year I would be paying around £7000 in tax so would only get £17k take home. FOR ACTUALLY WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Or with tuition fee’s… The country is in debt, so the government is forcing students to take loans to go to university to get better jobs to pay more in tax!
I am leaving this world for a better place, to be with the people I care for, and because I honestly don’t see anything special in it.
What the hell, I have two degrees and am working for the minimum. I have just finished my contract and sent off some applications last week. I noticed a voice message on my phone in response but it’s a few days old. I hope the job is still available. Because of my gambling and drink problem I couldn’t even afford a hair cut let alone credit to top up my phone.
Anyway, my friend did her dissertation on Animal Welfare and she dot a top Mark because of her passion. Because of her research she gave up eating meat. She does however still eat fish and is yet to see the cruel irony of being starved of oxygen and then being clubbed to death.
Hmm and they also apply heavy tax on my two favourite things cigarettes and booze. As if I’m going to live long enough to be a burden on the NHS or claim a state pension.
Exactly, proves my point. Education is a dream by the government to delay people trying to enter the job market whilst making money. Yep the government wants to tax you everyway possible to take as much as they can whilst giving you nothing.
Lol, now thats irony for ya. Never actually considered how fish is killed until today actually.