i’m currently 18 years old (male), have a good circle of friends, supportive family, and have never really had any common struggles such as abuse or neglect. The thing is, i’m totally fucked inside. I’m a shell. I’ve always been told i’m attractive and i believe them partly. The thing is, i have a huge and weird shaped head. picture an upside down triangle. I used to have shorter hair when i was younger and i thought nothing of it. i used to get the odd comment like ‘you have a big head’ but it never used to bother me. i then realised that a longer hairstyle would be more suitable. since then i have always had longish hair, but i’m sick of it. and to make matters worse my hair is starting to recede, which has stopped me from being able to do my hair like i used to. This may sound like some irrational or self absorbed rant, and i exhibit all the signs of body dysmorphic disorder, but i’ve been told i have a big head and i KNOW i do, that is the difference between me and someone who just perceives a body part to be. I’m now at the crossroads, get short hair and let people realise that wow, he isn’t attractive after all. continue being a fake with my long hair, or end it for good. The hardest part is knowing that i will never be able to have a ‘cool’ hairstyle like everyone else. I’ll never be able to be comfortable with myself and how i look. It breaks my heart when i look at my younger sister. We look almost identical except she has a normal head. I’ve watched her blossom into a beautiful young woman who is not insecure in the slightest. Her friends come over often and tell her that they think im attractive, but i cant put on this act forever, people wonder why im quiet and shy. It’s all because of my ugly fucking head. I would love to be able to just shave my head and see a normal head. I really don’t know what to do anymore.
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I know i’m not in your situation, it must be horrible to go through. But really, you need to do what you like. You shouldn’t make yourself feel fake. I’ve been there done that it’s not fun. If you’re worried about people, “judging” you on your head, then they’re not your real friends. Especially if they make smart remarks about it. People should be accepting you for who you are, not just the way you look. If you feel better with short hair, cut your hair. Those people can get used to it. I’m sure you’re a great guy, and you need to do what makes you happy.
I agree with supern0vaa… You should present yourself the way you want. If someone isn’t supportive, then wish them the best and keep moving forward.
I know whats it like to feel insecure about something. Im 17 and lots of people tell me im pretty which i sort of believe, not really. See i have really long legs, not like freaky cartoon caracter tall legs no torso, but long enough and im sort of tall(5’8 or 5’9) and everyone compliments me on them but i HATE them. I have a skin disoreder whereit always looks like i have goosebumps and it really bothers me. I used to cover them up, always wear jeans(jeans r still my staple but thats just cuz there awesome) but i live inCalifornia so its ALWAYS hot so im pretty much forced to wear shorts/skirts. Worst part since im tall no matter how long i get them they alawys look super short. Also,im mexican so i have a olive skin tone which lots people compliment me on but my little sister is blonde and has really light skin(different dads but she only a quater white) so ive always been super jealois of her. Ive never had a boyfriend and my friends all say its cuz i dont put myself out thete but im really selfconsious…sorry this probably doesnt help a whole lot but i know what ur going through…ohand everyones head is shaped kinda wierd, amd petsonally i think guyd with short hair is better tjan guys with long hair :]
ps sorry about all the spelling mistake my touch screen sucks haha