I’m so sick and tired of being left behind.
I don’t really no how to describe it. I am just done with everything.
No one really knows how upset I am. I’ve never told anyone why I am like this. Most people, don’t notice how depressed I am. It’s starting to take it’s toll on me though. I stay up until 4am daily now, get as much sleep as I can, repeat. I am constantly tired because I just, don’t… do anything. I mope around my house. The only things i’ve been able to think about today, is how horrible my life is compared to others. I know, we all have different views on how a life could be horrible. But here’s mine;
All I think about daily is a few things. A main contributor is my friend, Alex. I miss him. So much. He recently became more “internet famous” on a website, and since I knew him for so much longer before this even started he told me not to worry about it i’d always be more important. Apparently not. He doesn’t talk to me. And if I ever try to talk to him he either a) doesn’t reply or b) replys sounding rather annoyed. So much, for being so close bro =/
Another thing. No one in my life seems to care about me. It’s just a general horrible feeling. My friends always text me saying ooo guess what just happened look at what I got! I always support them no matter what, because it’s just who I am. But does it really kill you to ask someone how they’re doing once in a while?
‘Cause now i’m just sitting here. In bed. using all willpower to not use this pretty new knife I have in front of me ._.