I still don’t understand why…. Why did you do it? How could you? Why does it seem to affect me so much yet you’re fine? Why does it hurt me so much but sound so stupid to others? Why am I going crazy like this? What triggered it? And why? I don’t know. And it bothers me. Too many fucking questions and absolutely NO answers.. What the fuck am I to do? what the fuck am I to think? Why am I so fucking anxious? I can’t think straight, i’m nervous, shakey, I feel like if I am tweaked the fuck out or something.. Restless, sleepless, clueless, paranoid.. I don’t like it. I can’t seem to catch my breath.. weed isn’t even helping. FUCK
and my anti-depressants make it 50x worse! how in the fuck can a simple BREAK UP be THIS hard on a human? it makes me feel stupid.. Real stupid but I try and ignore it and I can’t. It always comes back. I don’t know how much of this I can take.. this.. This stupid feeling.
has anyone ever felt like this?
or am I fuckin losin’ it again?
I can’t seem to talk to anyone about this. it seems like nobody cares or they’ll think i’m stupid.. I feel like a weirdo, I need some sleep but it’s like it’s not an option
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I know what you feeling. And I wish I can tell you it will pass in time. But thats
What everyone told me. I’ve been feeling this way for 2 years now and nothing helps.
The only thing I didn’t try is seeing a pro for help and im thinking about maybe you should to.
I’ve always taken breakups really badly, I’m pretty much never the one who ends my relationships, always getting dumped, and it never gets any easier. I don’t think any of what you’re feeling is abnormal, the end of a relationship is one of the worst experiences in the world topped only by a loved one dying. Just try to get through it one day at a time. I am the worst hopeless romantic in the world, I have a very hard time moving on from people, but even I start to feel better eventually. You will too.
I agree with what you say that it is a really complicated feeling. sighs. It’s because of unfinished emotional business- unanswered questions, things you don’t understand, things left unsaid that worsens the pain of breakups. You’re being tormented by your own thoughts.. yet the person refuses to give any answers or explanations. even you fail to understand/discover the answers to your own questions… and you can’t sleep, can’t concerntrate..can’t even get up from bed because you feel physically and emotionally drained.
I know it’s hard. But dnt let ths depressing experiences remove your SELF-WORTH… you’re a GIFT to ths world…no matter how you feel rejected or any kind of negative feelings..
hang on.. give yourself time..