I did it. I finally screwed up and flunked out of art school. Art school! I’m a shame to my parents. It was bound to happen. Every time I try something, I fail. I hurt people. My girlfriend hurt herself and blamed it on me. Maybe I really did do it to her by being a bad boyfriend. My doctor has said my androgyny is my own fault and he can’t help. It seems like I end up taking the easy way out. Maybe it’s because I don’t have enough testosterone. I’ve disappointed a lot of people. Sometimes I don’t even try. I don’t know why, I just can’t make myself do it. It’s pretty sad when the biggest achievement in your life was when you completed a Pokedex. I know a lot of people will be sad if I end it, but I think it’d be easier for both myself and them.
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Sometimes the best way to do things isn’t the easiest. There is almost always a solution when problems happen. If you are struggling, work on things one at a time. They can get overwhelming if you flood yourself with situations. One by one… day by day… you can work things through.
I tried. I always end up failing. Honestly the only thing preventing me from doing it is that I know I’d end up just hurting myself and not actually ending it.
For what reasons did you flunk art school?
If that is your passion then maybe do elf analysis and try to overcome those.
And it is not your fault that your girlfriend hurt herself. She is just trying to make herself feel better by making you responsible. You guys need a long tak preferably with a couples counselor.
Your doctor is a cretin. Androgyny is just one lifestyle within a rich range of lifestyles. If that is who you are accept it and revel in it. Personally I think it is rather beautiful to be able to not be easily classified as male or female despite society’s opinion. In Japan or Korea you’d be a pop idol or movie star.
Nothing wrong with the easy way as lon as it is the most practical and efficient way.
Everything does not have to be a struggle. Just step back and see if the pain cannot somehow be lessened.