Once again I find my self slipping and it comes back to the same problem I am lonely. I have been here many times before after trying so hard my blasted brain drives my to seclusion time and time again. I over think everything and drive everyone away I can not leave anything alone. I have failed out of just about everything there is nothing left for me. I would love nothing more than to cut again its the only bloody thing that ever helped but I gave it up over two years ago certain that things would get better. And I thought they did I really did but I count not have been more wrong the last of my friends have moved on and left me behind again. I just want to die and not have to think any more.
sorry for just barfing stuff out but I am not thinking in complete thoughts
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Hi Jarbie… I’m glad you’re not cutting any more. It’s ok to post random thoughts here… This is a good place for people to listen and support you. You’re not alone. I’m not sure what stage of life you’re in… but chances are, as you go through school, work, and other activities you’ll cross paths with a lot more people… and some of them will become friends. It will be important for you to have a strategy so you don’t allow your brain to implement seclusion time… That would undo the friendships you’re trying to create. I know things seem rough now… Don’t give up.