My finances are a mess. Â And I’m old enough to know better. I have a job, but I still can’t seem to catch up no matter what I do. Â Every week brings another disaster. Â I barely keep things together, and then they fall apart.
The latest happened today. Â My gas was just shut off. Â And I don’t have the money to pay to get it turned back on. Â I don’t qualify for any assistance programs. Â But I’m trying to catch up on all these other debts. Â In order to keep getting paid, I have to fly to Chicago every couple weeks for a job. Â That costs money too. Â And I can’t afford to pick up my entire life and move there right now. Â Plus I have lots of work in L.A., and I’m not getting paid for it yet. Â They just keep telling me the check is coming, and it never arrives.
I can’t keep working for free. Â And every time there seems to be light at the end of the tunnel, the tunnel just gets longer.
I used to have a great life. Â Now it totally sucks. Â I hate living like this. Â I don’t want to continue living like this.
What’s the point? Â If this is what the rest of my life is going to be like, I don’t want to do it. Â It’s too stressful, painful, demoralizing.
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Honey, if you live in America, chances are it’s not your fault- so many people “slip through the cracks”. It’s the construction of society at fault, most of the time.