Im not sure how i found this website. But i did, and as i began reading through these posts i felt myself being able to relate more and more. Ive never tried suicide, but like most, its crossed my mind. Theres something about it that makes me feel so safe. It seems so welcoming and warm. Escaping this world.. escaping my problems.. my family.. my “friends”.. my disgusting body and annoying personality. Just leaving it all behind and giving up. I would.. if i had the guts. The guts to research how many pills. The guts to leave some form of letter as to why. The guts to push the blade a little bit deeper.. just a little bit deeper. If only i had the guts.