Thinking about it worried me less and less over time because I wanted to be gone from this world… Coming up with a plan should have scared me but i was so convinced that I was done that it didn’t… I actually felt relief when I bought what I would need to get the job done… What gave me pause was the process itself. That’s the Cliffs Notes version.
I’m working on seeing the light… I can’t say that I’m confident or expecting it… but I do have hope. I gotta start somewhere.
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It is scary when you realize you actually have a plan, because then suicide is no longer just a fleeting thought.
Hang in there.
Let me know if you want someone to talk to.
Thinking about it worried me less and less over time because I wanted to be gone from this world… Coming up with a plan should have scared me but i was so convinced that I was done that it didn’t… I actually felt relief when I bought what I would need to get the job done… What gave me pause was the process itself. That’s the Cliffs Notes version.
I’m working on seeing the light… I can’t say that I’m confident or expecting it… but I do have hope. I gotta start somewhere.
Like cbrown said… If you need someone to talk to, this is a good place for that. People will listen and help when they can.
No, the worst part is when you don’t write about it.
I’m not afraid of dying but that’s nit the same as wanting to die. The least you can do is put up some sort of resistance instead of giving up.