Why is it when I speak no one listens.
Why do I feel as though I have so much to say to so many people but I always end up holding back as I dont think they will understand.
Inside I have had enough, all I want is someone to understand, put their arms around me and stay with me until I feel better.
One day this cry for help will come too late.
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I know. Sometimes it feels like screaming into a void and you wonder why no one hears you. It’s so hard when all it would take is a hug or someone saying you matter. I guess it’s scary though because I was told three weeks ago that my life was too meaningful to lose and then the same person who comforted me abandoned me. After saying my death would mean his own. So maybe it’s time for us both to find a way to matter to ourselves. People can’t seem to be relied upon. 🙁
You have summed it up well.
I know where u are coming from. I just want someone to hug me, listen to me, help me, support me. Friends are there during day but when the thoughts are very real at night where is everyone?????
I am tired of feeling unloved, not needed, unwanted.
Trouble,
Life will continue to become much harder. I used to have many friends and would hang out with them all the time. Now I have reached the point that the only people I wish to even talk to is my wife (who is quickly growing tired of dealing with my psych disorder).
I distance myself from everyone because then I dont have to everyones “good intentions” or thier empathy.
I will tell you this: You will meet someone that will hold you and “understand” who you are, but always be ready for the day they leave you. This is the cycle that will last for the rest of your living days.
Hi
I have already found that out. I have pushed everyone away all my friends and its it only a matter of time before he leaves me too. He is at the end of his tether with me and we dont live together.
I thought he was there to hold me and be there for me but while I have been ill again the distance is wide. he tell me I am at home and festering about nothing we are fine if only he would spare the time to allow me to talk.
I am paranoid of losing him but know my actions are destroying us. I cannot talk to my family my mum would go into panic mode and insit i return home something I am not prepared to do. she is 50 miles away so I am alone in a town where I know noone apart my son who lives up the road but only see once a week.