Pain burns through me and I cant stop the fire that kills me. Im nothing. Ill always be nothing. I like to believe that Im worth it. But am I truly? I can never be the girl that Ive always wanted to be. I could never be pretty, smart, extremely talented. Ill never be cool and ill never be someone amazing. Ill always be the fat ugly girl. Ill always be stupid…ill always be alone. I know that they all want me to be different. Even my own father wishes that I was different. Trust me, I wish I was different too. I trick myself into believing that I could be something more. I trick myself into believing that one day its all going to get better. But in reality? Its never going to get better. Its always going to be the same, no matter how much I want to believe. So why am I still here? Why do I still stay in this sick world? Why do I stay trapped in the pain that I am in? Why cant I let it go?
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I feel Your pain… It’s hard being someone You don’t want to be. But trust me, You are who You are and You don’t need to change Yourself. There will be people who will hate You for being the person You are. You should not care. Only being the person You are makes You free and happy. If You try being someone else, You will feel like You are nothing, because You will be. Be Yourself and don’t hide Your emotions. Your emotions are normal, talk with someone about them and show the world. Don’t smile then sad it only will make You miserable.
thank you. you made me feel a lot better
If your fat, you can lose weight. If your IQ suffers, raise it by eating fish (yuck), reading a book, paying attention in class. If you think your ugly, then you probably aren’t actually. I always thought of myself as ugly, but some people called me cute.