Even my friends abandon me in the end
fair-weather and clear skies bring us together
Strife and storms bore us apart
When things work out they’re there for me, but
When I’m in need, they flee
I’m too much, I’m a downer, I’m lost
I’m not worth it, I’m unfixable, I’m depressed
Why try to be what I’m not, just to see anothers response
When on the inside I’m just completely done?
I see the world for what it is, my views aren’t distorted
There is no love, no care, only hatred.
And when I say it aloud I draw a crowd of lies about
How wrong I am and how everything is perfect.
Things aren’t as terrific as they seem in this dream,
my hell of a life that I’ve come to call my nightmare.
I drone on in a constant state of despair begging for no tomorrow,
While all I ever show to the world is sorrow, tis all I feel.
No time to heal, no time to grow, I’ll put on a show of
How fine I am and how ok I’ll be.
But the part they’ll never see is how Ive come to believe
That this world, this life, this universe is fucked
Everyone and everything is corrupt because of human nature
To care when it benefits you and leave when it stops
To lie and cheat and steal then call for the cops when you are wronged by another man on the street you chose to greet with your presence.
The greed is their creed as my death is my all I have left
So as it turns out, I’m not ok, I’m not alright
I’ll be surprised if I manage to live through the night
To see the bitter morrow full of borrowed time
I stole from lord grim once in a game of gin
As I drink this bottle of old rummy I find it funny that
I’m even still talking considering everyone will just keep walking
once I’m gone.
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If you believe you’re unfixable then gosh darn it you are. But I don’t think so! I believe in hope. Negativity is a viral disease that infects others. Nobody likes negativity! I have been told often by my family that I am unpleasant to be around (too bad they are my family! LOL). But when I’m with friends I try to be on my best behavior, stay positive and help them smile when their down. I have a friend whose grandmother (the women who raised her) died of cancer recently, her friend died of alcoholism, and her long distance boyfriend dumped her. She was really down at first but every time I see her I would try to make her smile and stay positive. Remember what the great Oscar Wild said, “Some people bring joy wherever they go, others whenever they goâ€. Don’t be the person that pushes people away. Handle you’re “shit†and take care of yourself. Don’t throw baggage on people who can’t carry it. I only rant to friends if something really bothering me and only a few times until I can solely handle the situation myself. Cure that negativity bug in you and your friends will come back to you. Humans just want to be happy. Lets your friend help you forget your troubles not make them worse.
Your Friends and Family Honestly Do Care, However They may not display their concern or compassion always, infact they may display hatred or bitterness most sporadically, if your loved ones wait until your better to care then they are displaying false admiration, a true loved one will be there always no matter the situation, they flee because they are frightened, but they need to realize that the situation is not up to them or about them, fleeing is not an option for the person you love, they should be there with you every step if the way dear, Ohhh My Dear Im Soooo Sorry, and you are impeccable the way you are, even if your depressed, you are the opposite of unfixable, you have the chance to be happy, once your grey skies clear a ray of sunshine will light your way for always. <3