Myself  Hari Krishna 23 years old my life was miserable from childhood till now, my mother died due to accident when I was one year old at that time I was in her lap but till now I am very sad about why I didn’t died along with my mother. At the age of 14 years my father died due to Paralysis and my step mother married another man she left me alone and also I don’t have any brothers or sisters I worked in internet cafe and studied for one year after that I went to my uncle home who works in saudi arabia I along with Uncle parents staying here  and doing btech final year and searched  for jobs also applied for nearly 50 jobs but I was not selected.During my engineering I year  I proposed a girl but she rejected me I felt very disappointed I thought it was my fate and in final year I again proposed another girl but that girl also rejected me this time my heart broken.When I turn back in to my life and checked what I achieved it was shocking that every thing in my life was failures. When I see my classmates they are enjoying life but I was suffering I missed my parents I dont want this life.Every thing in my life happiness or sadness will be shared by me only there is no one for me no friends, no brothers, no sisters, no girl friend, no parents finally am an orphan.I really pray god that no one should suffer in life like me.
Please any one who can help me provide KCN ( cyanide ) capsule I will pay money.I cant live this world any more like an orphan.I tried an suicide attempt but I was failure as it was common in my life.Everyday I pray god “to take my life but God gave me this life to take punishment but It was severe I cant bear this pain GOD Â please forgive my mistakes and give punishment in other life please give me death” but cannot hear my pains or requests from my childhood to till now he never hear about my pains. So I beg anyone provide me KCN capsule so I can die I cant live like an orphan…..
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Dealing with that pain from 14 to 23 is a really long time. You should be proud of yourself for hanging on for so long. You never know who can come into your life. You proposed to two girls, they just weren’t right for you. They say the third is the charm. Maybe trying for friendship would be a better start than marriage. Having a friend really helps through the pain, if only one who you cannot meet in person. This probably doesn’t help but I didn’t want you to feel like no one hears you.
God did not put you on this earth to punish you. Everyone was put on this earth to find happiness.. You just have lost it. Thats why you feel the need to die, you automatically think well life=sadness so death=happiness but thats not how it works. to be able to feel you have to ALIVE. you might not want this life but you are still here because god believes there is still a chance for you to find happiness. you are only failing because you are trying to look for happiness within other people when really you should be looking within yourself for happiness! Love yourself for who you are, you will find a job, you will find the girl who is right for you. And if god didnt think you were not strong enough to live without your parents he wouldnt have taken them, but he knows you are strong enough and is just waiting for you to realize your own strength. i can not help you find your happiness, im just telling you that your looking in the wrong place, its within youself, not within others.. ithers might help you find it but you are capable of finding it yourself. Stay strong and keep looking because one day you will find it. Let this thought always be your hope, that you will find your happiness, let that always be your hope to carry on.
Become a chemistry teacher and buy KCN from Sciencelab.com if you can pass their approval process. It’s not cheap but your should have some money in your (I want to kill myself savings) I have 1000 dollars cash in mine. There are emails floating around the internet that people claim if you contact them they will give it to you. Just do your research and chose the best option. Good luck and sorry I don’t have any.
i have 50gms of kcn ie. pottasium cyanide…. my email is nilesht65@ yahoo dot com