I feel like i’m a failure at life. No one likes me. I annoy every single person I talk to and no one wants me here. I already thought about commiting suicide multiple times, but my best friend talked me out of it every time, showing me videos, talking to me, asking me to stay for her. But i’m not sure I can do it anymore. I just don’t want to live anymore. My life sucks and my parents aren’t doing anything about it. It’s like they also don’t want me here, so they’re not doing anything about it so I can kill myself and they can go on with their lives.
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people that do go to hell, ive been there. its it alternates black and white and the souls arent particularly nice
talk to me, and yes you sound like a person to start a friendship with
I was sexually harrassed by my godmother’s boyfriend. When i told her what happened she didn’t believe me. That’s when the depression started. I didn’t eat, sleep, couldn’t focus on school. My life was Hell. It hasn’t gotten any better, and it’s been almost a year. I don’t know what i’m going to do. I think killing myself would just be the best option, because if i’m dead, i don’t have to worry about anything.
Honestly, I know how you feel. I used to be that kid that nobody ever cared about in 7th grade, but don’t worry. Life will progress and you will find good friends. I know I have. And your parents aren’t doing anything about it because they don’t know what your going through. I have felt that way myself.. I wanted my parents to find out, but I was too afraid to tell them. I have had a lot of trust issues with people. My friend who I had known from birth TOLD my parents I was depressed. But enough with my side of the story, just don’t worry. Everything really does get better. I’m currently forced to stay away from the girl I am in love with, but I know one day we will be reunited with her again. So just look at the brightside. Even though it may not seem like there is one. I used to feel like there wasn’t one, but there is. I actually have attempted committing suicide btw, i’ve been bullied pretty much my whole life, its a miracle im still here. So just keep your chin up. Things really do get better.
You can talk to me about it if you want. I know what it’s like to not have anyone here for me, and I don’t want anyone feeling the same way. Please don’t ever commit suicide. You’re worth way more than that no matter who you are. I wish I could take my own advice though..
Taking advice is hard, I know the feeling. I have a hard time taking advice myself. I literally had a panic attack two nights ago I was that scared and stressed out. That’s one of the reasons I’m stopping myself from cutting. Because I dont want the person I was scared about, to die.. I got into the habit of cigarettes on Friday of last week, and I’m 14.. Things have been so fucked up lately its not even funny.
Actually, No it really wont be a better option. Because if you really think hard about suicide, think about all the people who would cry over your loss. Your parents will, your best friend will, it will make their lives worse than you can ever imagine. You don’t know the emptiness they will feel over your loss. That’s the main reason why I personally, wont commit. No matter how fucked up life is. And I can’t tell you how much I hate people who sexually harass and molest kids..
You shouldn’t smoke, drink, or do drugs. I’ve done all of it and i’m 15. It feels good at the time, but when you wake up in the morning, it sucks. It makes you feel even worse, so you have to do it more to get your mind off it. Then you get addicted. You should stop, I understand if you want to keep doing it, but it’s honestly not the best thing to do. I just recently got back into the habit of cutting, and it feels so good. But people ask so many questions. And my mom doesn’t even notice though…
i jumped off a cliff and survived. i know what it feels just hang in there and things will get better
And I know it wouldn’t be the better option, it just seems that way sometimes.. I hate them too, many kids say ‘if anyone tried to do that to me, i’d scream and get them off me!’ i always said that too, but i didn’t. cause at the time all you’re thinking about it whether you’re going to die or not. and you dont speak up, till its over
I know I shouldn’t, but I regulate myself so it doesn’t cause too much harm. And yeah I LOVE cutting, especially the pain it brings the day after. I normally keep my arms covered all day, (except for night cuz nobody will see u..), and i haven’t washed my jacket in weeks i wear it so often. One of my friends posted on facebook that she would cut in the same place that the guy/girl did if she saw the scars, and in my opinion thats not the right course of action. I always hide my arms because of people like that. I just wish people would butt out of their lives when they do that, ya know?
And Zerda, I tried to drown myself. I about did if I didn’t think of my ex, or the one i love.
And people may say that, but what if their more musculine than you? What do you do then?
Cutting is just my escape from everything, I love doing it. The pain is wonderful. I just hate how everyone takes suicide and depression as a joke, like they say ‘you think your life is bad well mine..’ no, every form of depression is bad, and it should all be taken care of, no matter how ‘bad’ it is. And the person that sexually harassed me was probably a good 120lbs bigger than me, and i was afraid that if i said anything, he would hurt me even worse.
Yeah and I understand that. And yes cutting does give me an escape, but it only hurts the ones I love, and the ones that love me. And yes I do agree about that, one day in my 4th period, (math), this one girl was like,”Oh my god, your sister tried to commit suicide? She only wants attention.” In my mind I was like, “Dude wtf..” and I cant remember what my friend said, but it is true it isn’t something to joke about. If you do it only means your a heartless person who needs to get a life. People go through this stuff and its not funny, its a serious problem in this world.
I have been bullied into my depression, and im bullied for the way I look and the things I do. Every week i have someone always yell out, “oh look at that emo! Hes so gay! Cutter!” etc. I just want to brutally torture them til’ they die, but im too weak.
yeah, i dont understand how people can joke about that. They have no souls and I just don’t care for them very much. And the people that make fun of me for it, just make it even worse. One day, this kid in my 2nd period (english) screamed ‘(my name) got raped by a big black man!!!!’ in front of the whole class. i spent the rest of the day crying, had to go back on my medication and start counseling all over again. I hate people that joke about stuff like that. I dont even know how he found out about that, but all i know is that he deserves to go to hell.
I hate people who do that.. The kid who used to sit next to me in math said to me ‘Your just an emo cutter!’ I literally about got up from my desk, and punched him in the damn mouth. Too bad the teacher came in at the last second.. :/
I would have said something to the kid, but i’m not that strong. I just went home and cried, cut, and listened to depressing music. Which is what I do about every day since then.
And that is true they make life ultimately worse. I have been bullied since kindergarten. and all i can do is watch them do it..
And it doesn’t help that i’m not the prettiest, most popular, sought after girl ever.
I started cutting in 7th grade, when bullying got into a really bad problem. In 8th a rumor got out that i had sex with a teacher at the school, and i up and quit the school i couldnt take it anymore, i was reminded of that every single day for the next month before i left..
And yeah i know how you feel..
i hate rumors. people just need to mind their own damn business. how does starting rumors help them in any way? feeling better by making someone else feel bad. taking someones strength away from them and giving it to themselves. thats sick.
I know right. I makes me feel like shit because i couldnt do anything about it. Because if i told a counselor or something it would make me seem like a fool because the whole school was in on it..
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Exactly. Which is why I don’t tell anyone anything anymore. Cause you can’t trust anyone.
Yeah I have really bad trust issues. i normally tell people the bare minimum so they dont have dirt on me.. I cant hardly trust any of the adults either because they never really get what i am going through..
When my friend told my parents that i was cutting, i was so pissed. My parents were the reason why I was cutting in the first place. And the last thing i needed was my parents on my ass about it.. When they didnt know, they would yell at me and i would yell back. It got most of the anger and sadness out of my system because i would cry. I hate being yelled at but it is a good way to relieve stress because i normally cry. And thing is i need something to trigger me to cry. I cant just cry on demand..
Same. I don’t even know how to explain how I feel, it just hurts too much. My parents think my depression is because of the sexual harassment, but its because of everyone. I hate how someone can make me so depressed and they don’t even know anything.
Ikr.. My parents thought my depression and anger was because of lack of sleep when that wasnt even it. My parents think they know anything and everything about me when they dont. People try to help me but i dont really listen.. Im the one who mainly gives the advice..
My parents when they get mad at me they yell like ‘your disrespectful! You never give a damn about anybody but yourself!’
Yes. Exactly that. My parents don’t know anything about me. My father abuses me and he thinks it’s perfectly fine. I say ‘ouch’ and he says ‘that doesn’t hurt’ and does it harder. i only see him on the weekends, but he doesnt take advantage of the time he has to hurt me. i blame it all on my cat, or the fact that im so clumsy…
and yeah, same here..
have you called child services on him? He sound like an ass who deserves to be in jail..
he is, but i can’t call.. my little sister. she knows about none of this. and she needs parents. they’ve done nothing to her.. that i know of, and i can’t take her parents away from her. she needs to have a happy life, even if i dont. i dont want to hurt her
Oh yeah.. you blame it on your cat or something, sorry. D: but still.. thats not right.
yeah i know and i understand that.
i do. & it’s fine. it’s been going on since i was little, when my parents were still together. they got a divorce because my mom cheated on him with a pot head. theyre still together and my dad has his little family with his new gf and child, my mom and her bf have their family and its my sister fits in both. i just spend all my time alone or at a friends house, away from them and the pain
My dad used to always ‘playfully’ push me and moderately softly hit me. And it still hurt my feelings..And I’m forced into a religion that i don’t even believe in.. I never really did believe in mormonism. I am now atheist because god never really was there for me (sorry if that may offend you..) and I want to punch your dad in the face to make him see the bigger picture. Nobody deserves to be abused.
ive told my parents that im atheist, but they still force me in the same shit i was in when i was mormon..
And i used to be at my friends house to escape from all the shit that was in my house. Everybody was yelling and arguing.. Nothing ever seemed to be calm in my house..
i dont have a problem with it. everyone should be able to be their own religion, honestly i dont really know if i believe in God because he’s made this much pain come upon me. if everything happens for a reason, whats the reason of my pain? and yeah, i want to punch him too, but im to scared of him, of everyone. and same, nothing is calm in my house… ever
If there really was one, then why do people suffer from depression..? Why do people commit suicide? theres so many reasons why i dont think that there is one..
And yeah i would be afraid also. Do you have a phone? Ill give you my ipod number if you want.
I hardly use it so it doesnt matter to me..
or my email if you would prefer.
exactly. and sure, either one you want.
my ipod number is: 479 668 0556
dont give yours away on here though just text me and ill get your message.
ok, i just texted you