Ever heard that song about teddy bears in the woods having a picnic…?
‘If you go out in the woods today, You’re sure of a big surprise, If you go out into the woods today, You’d better go in disguise’.
I have no idea what that song has to do with this post or even my thoughts, but the song came into my head yesterday evening and has buzzing through my head like a constant bird’s song. And for the minority of the majority of you that are wondering whether or not i still want to kill myself, the answer is yes, i do.
Fuck.
I really want to do it, to have everything just… disappear. It would be brilliant to never have to worry about ‘It’ again, But my biggest fear is getting to that point and changing my mind. Or what if someone stopped me? It would mentally fuck me up even more than life already has. I don’t know what to do, I can’t stand to live like this anymore… read an interesting fact last night. Most people who have OCD have considered suicide, But I think it’s only about 1% who go through with it. I’m becoming more nervous and keep checking my sorroundings a lot… I also stare at things and try to decipher them like they have something wrong with them.My birthday seems years away, and once again i’m pretending. Pretending that everything is ok and helping my parents with their birthday plans for me so they don’t suspect anything, Kinda sick really. Only one of my closest friends knows the date, and another just knows my feelings. I want to be able to stay strong for them but… i’m way past that point now.
One, Nothing wrong with me.
Two, Nothing wrong with me.
Three, Nothing wrong with me.
Four, Nothing wrong with me.
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First off, let me just say that I love the lyrics at the end. You don’t need to kill yourself to make all of your problems disappear. Find something that you enjoy (that doesn’t have to do with harming yourself in any way) and do that. I’m like you really. I pretend nothing is bothering me when everything is. So I just escape this world into my own and find a way to let it out healthily. I wouldn’t want anyone to hurt themselves!!! It’s not worth it. Life gets better and if you choose to end it, then you just wasted a perfectly good life. You were put on this Earth for a reason!! You’re life is precious, whether you believe it or not. If you need anything just email me at shaymarie2014@gmail.com. I will gladly help you with anything.
My life isn’t worth anything… I have no purpose… I have been harming myself for years … But thank you, i really appreciate your time… <3.
Yes it is and you do have a purpose but that’s not always apparent. You can do great things and the future is changing in the biggest ways by the smallest things.
I don’t no whether your watching it but Judd Trump is playing on bbc2. He’s a Bristolian! So he’s really cool. He looks identical to my brother.
Maybe you need to find your purpose. If you think your worthless do something worthful. I don’t think that a word but… oh well:) do something that you think will contribute to this world so you wont feel so worthless. Think of all the people who you talk to, who say hi or wave, who you may have helped. Your not worthless to them. Your not worthless to me just because I like you name. Feirce Love <3
@Duke… Ahaa.. I can’t stand snooker -_- but Judd Trump is my favourite.. O.o
@Just listen. you like my name? and that doesn’t make me worthless? lolz.. chu funny… But thank you..
Nat is a very cool name and the dots at the end make you mysterious 😮 ohhhh 🙂
Yeah he got to the final last year but got beaten by Higgins. When asked what he would spend the money on if he won he said he would take all his mates on holiday. What a cool down to earth guy.
@justlisten. Ah… Thanks 🙂 @duke. So are you, take me on holiday. I had hoped to see america before….
Your welcome. Why do you think your worthless? You can do anything be anything you want.
Ahaa… I really can’t.
Maybe not everything, everything say like run around your town wearing nothing but a tidy-whity. But if you wanted to go to college or start a new hobby or something to that effect you could. And what was the ‘It’ you mentioned?
‘It’… Urm… doesn’t matter.
And damn.. quite like the idea of running around basically naked.
-_-
Haha ya after I posted that I started thinking how funny that would be 🙂
Hmm… Actually. It would be a pretty nasty sight. O.o
I bet it would make the front page of a news paper:)
Haha… I would out fully clothed and people would beg me to take them off… O.o