4 years ago due to a stress induced issue during a relationship which may sound cliche but there was a large variety of issues which had piled on top of me and caused it.
i made a break attempt at well…..ending it all……obviously i cant go into details of what i did but its  a horrible thought that the only reason i woke up in hospital was because the bottle ran dry and i ran out things to swallow and i hadn’t broken the skin far enough….
Now given i was heavily inebriated when this venture occurred which didn’t help at all, i only have two memory’s from A&E firstly telling the nurse i didn’t want my family informed and secondly trying to start on some paramedics which had said something about my drunken state…..this the morning after i found highly unprofessional considering how hammered i was and that i was stumbling around the emergency ward. I could have been there for anything? I’m not proud of it but i would have thought trained paramedics would have known better.
I do how ever have a full memory the morning after of being asked to speak to a social worker regarding the incident. they walked me into a room closed off with a thick fire door, i remember passing into this dull grayish walled room with a hard white laminated tiled floor and presented a low backed arm chair…this being the most comfortable seat id come across in a hospital from a distant turned out to be a hard boxy wooden contraption lined with water proof material…the conversation last all of 10 minutes and she seemed happy to let me leave by me simply stating, I’m fine i wont do it again, this line i swear id used a thousand times in my teenage years in school yet seemed sufficient for them to just give me the nod and work. I’m glad they never followed me up on the problem but really? its that easy to just walk out of a hospital after something like that? i understand i was possibly one of maybe a hundred cases they probably seen already that month and I’m glad it never got followed up but to me they didn’t really go out of their way to prevent the chance of seeing me back in their the further weekend when things went worse again, the only thing they told me was the outcome of what would have happened if my blood had become intoxicated due to kidney/liver failure what ever it was.
i believe more should be done to make sure people don’t repeat these things with follow ups, even if its only just a quick mandatory doctors appointment to assess you briefly so maybe you could be urged to see a counselor or be advised of some further help