spring once again..

after everything iv tried i’m still here…. I don’t get it i’ve lost so much blood that i dident even know i could bleed this much. I’m broken down I can’t keep going like this. With spring here I wount be able to keepwring hoodies and lng sleve shirts so people wil start to notice and ill get sent away for “help” once again…. Why can’t I just end it for once and all! i mean as soon as they see my cutts they wil have more things to make fun of me with i alreddy get called a fag everyday… I don’t know what to do anymore.. The only person that was able to help me killd himself bcaus eu broke his heart. I can’t live with the pain anymore but every time i try i always wake up again crying…. the only thing keeping me sain is this websit being able to rant on and on knowing mabey someone will care… But really yu may say you do but we all know you really don’t……..