I googled “suicide” and “loneliness” yet again, and it brought me here. I’m lonely, suicidal, almost 30. Got help in the past, pills, therapy you name it, nothing helped. I fell in love with a girl who was also the best friend I ever had, a girl I’ve known for three years. She never responded to this love, like all the girls I loved before. I never even had a girlfriend. She stopped being my friend and started resenting me 6 months ago, almost every day I check her facebook, see her living her life, much happier without me in it. I had to move back in with my parents, I’m broke and simply cannot work anymore, no matter how hard I try. I’m a disgrace. Some days it’s even too hard to play videogames. Imagine that.
It’s warm and sunny outside. I’ve not been outside for months. I’m so tired each day. I did not even want all my problems to be solved, all I wanted was a little love and happiness. I feel like dying is the only solution at this point. She would not even miss me, nobody would.
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When you get in a tight place, and everything goes against you. Till it seems like you cannot hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is the time for the tides to change x
Your situation is similar to mine. Lost a friend because i fell in love with my friend and my friend left me.
Its funny, here it is sunny at the moment and really warm too. A perfect day to go out. I just went out and found nothing to do, so I went home again. ( lot of people around me but no one was interested in me)
I have no idea what to do next, of course I have to do some work and cleaning, but I won’t do this stuff. I just want someone to go out with and enjoy this awesome weather at the moment.
I made my peace with me living alone. I have no real friends and also never had a girlfriend, but it is okay for me now. Please, don’t give up. At least I need you, because you are in a similar situation as I am. You tried to do some sports? Maybe I will go out running around a little bit in a few hours. It helps me to handle my loneliness. Oh and don’t believe the live of your girlfriend is soooo great, I did this too. But Facebook is the Internet and you don’t know if it is true what people are posting, but let me give you one final advice. My “friend” deleted our facebook-friendship instantly, so think about if it wouldn’t be the best to hide all her posts? So you don’t have to see what she is doing.
Maybe we could have been friends if I would know you in real life.
Hope I helped you a little bit, stay on earth, mate
I’m too in a similar situation (although i’m a girl evidently. Or not evidently, i’m 26 and love skateboarding and xbox). Have just had the end of a 7 year relationship (cheated on and dumped), and feel like my world is at an end.
The only thing stopping me at the moment is the off chance that i won’t be lonely forever. doubtful, but i’m holding on to it, if just for now.
Guess the point of this post was to say i feel for you, i really do. Sending what little love you can over the internet and wish i had more words i could say xxx
If you need anything email me at monstedrama@gmail.com i’d love to listen and talk to you.