Today i realized just how fast my emotions have been changing lately, one moment i feel hopeless, the other angry, sad and the other I’m just emotionally numb. it’s like my emotions decided to take some roller coster, what so now I don’t just have depression but I’m bipolar too? I definately want to get myself help though. Of course that’s not as easy as it may seem, i don’t have any money and I’m 14 so there’s no way i can get a therapist who could talk to my parents for me without them finding out about it first, talking to anybody in my school is not an option, i don’t think that I’d be able to tell my parents about how I’ve been feeling myself because i know that they wouldn’t believe me. I guess i could talk to my regular doctor but the problem is that we don’t really like each other all that much, it’s not like i have anything against her it’s just that she’s always really mean and because of that i don’t think that i can open up to her like that. Why does my life have to be so complicated?
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I know how you feel…I’m glad you want help and want to try therapy. Yea, welcome to the roller coaster ride…fun times. Not sure if it’s bipolar or what exactly, but I guess that’s something to ask a professional. Well what sort of relationship do you have with your parents? I’ve been trying to think of a wording to ask my own too without saying much…Maybe just a text asking for an appointment to be set up with a therapist, but you’d really rather not talk about it with them. Hopefully they’ll understand. I think it’s worth the risk with your parents than not trying at all and feeling like this…
Private therapists are usually very expensive, but isn’t there some public option, where you live?
E.g. a school counselor or something?
Or how about writing a letter to your parents about how you feel?
Sometimes it can be easier to collect your thoughts that way, and maybe it’ll be more believable to them? Make it clear that you’re not joking, that you’re serious.
I don’t know about bipolar, but I don’t think you need to put all sorts of labels on yourself prematurely.
A professional can help clear up how you feel, and judge whether to give you a diagnosis based on what you’re experiencing. Maybe you’re having mood swings for some other reason, or due to depression. Whatever it is, people should take it seriously, and try to help you.
Hey, at 14 your emotions will be all over the place!
Bi polar is usually much mor drastic then swinging moods.
You might want to start by calling a help line, they can connect you to resources in your area.
Peace