…in that dark place. I fell out with my mum yesterday, I thought it was just another petty argument but she took it too far. She started ranting about how she can’t deal with my ‘problems’ any more (I have severe depression). She said that she understands why my brother doesn’t like me because half of the time I am horrible to him, only she didn’t mention the part about him sexually abusing my younger brother and sister (who were taken away) for three years. I don’t want to be here anymore, my mum doesn’t want me, nothing needs to be said about my brother, and the rest of my family all feel the same. I’m just in the way, all the time, people would be better off without me, either that or they would realise how stupidly selfish they have been. I’m sick of feeling like this, summer suicide here we come.
Just to let you know this is not my only issue with my life, just before you judge.
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i feel ur pain if you plan to commit suicide ~you will be free~ 🙂
i wish i was therefore you
i have problems with my mother too
Thank you for replying, I hope you are okay 🙂
I dont judge you, seen some pretty evil shit. Shit coming from people you trusted to tell the truth and not hurt you. So anyways, you are in some shit. Do you think we can get to a better life without killing ourselves?
I’ve thought about it for months, ways that I can improve my life and have generally kept to myself. People are constantly telling me that I’m selfish for putting my problems on them, this is not my intention. If I kill myself people will also think I’m selfish and will ‘blame themselves’ (bullshit). Either way they will think I am a horrible person but I’m going to do whats best for me and try to be happy, dead or alive. Thank you for your comment, I hope you are well.
Sarah,
I’m ok i guess, though my bosses and so called leaders are a bunch of selfish greedy fools. They dont want to know the truth. They dont want solutions. All they want is greed avarice and deception. Fuck them.
I dont think you are horrible. I thank god you are here so we can talk, if not just for a moment. I wish for you great justice, justice that fills the heart and says goodness has vanquished evil. It is final victory.