It is not going to get better. It is actually going to get better and worse.  It is going to fluctuate like the temperature does during the year. Or the grades of a collection of students. Or the color of sky at dusk and dawn.Â
There are no guarantees. There is not a happily ever after. It does not work that way. Even if you expend 100% effort and 100% faith what you want still may not happen. Then again it may happen exactly as you choose. Or it may happen in a totally different fashion. The only thing you can do is keep going forward.
Acts seen as harmful do get rewarded sometimes. And helpful acts do result in punishment in many cases. And sometimes kindness results in pleasure and cruelty results in pain. Balance may exist as a universal concept, but on a smaller scale it is just wishful thinking. Otherwise we would not have people in this world whose whole lives are almost pure suffering. Some who know nothing else but.  And some people in the world seem to live a golden existence. Very little suffering at all. That is just as possible.
Life has wonders and blunders.Â
People will sell you symbolism and spiritual rhetoric to get you to hang on. If it works for you go with it.
 My recommendation is that you look inside yourself for the strength and purpose to carry on despite what happens. Check out Albert Camus. Has some very good reasons for saying just do it. Ride the rollercoaster and enjoy the journey.  Reach inside and pull out that inner animal and let its power keep you surviving.   Jump into a phone booth and let your inner hero out. Because unlike fairy tales, real heroes take their lumps and keep fighting. Even Superman got defeated in several different ways.  And many real life heroes died for their cause.
And to the youth, you are not yet master of yourself. Your brain is still growing, your biological systems are still in flux.  You are still under the control of your parents. You are still living in a part of reality that you have very little control over. So stay around at least for a few decades into adulthood to see what happens when you get your freedom.
Young ones, keep living past the point where your homones and growing pains are magnifying everything you experience. Does this invalidate your existence? No.  Just means there is considerably more past one’s maturity. When one can actually choose how to live rather than it be chosen for them. Where bullies still exist, but their power is made weaker by how things work.
To all reading this…
There are some people who truly want to die. But what I’ve seen here and other places is that many more want an end to the pain and suffering. And while death does that, it also ends pleasure and benefits. The only real way to actually feel something positive is to keep living. To keep striving…to keep reaching…to keep walking…to keep trying…to keep running.
There is aid out there. There are solutions to lessen your struggle. There are reasons and purposes to living if you want to hold them in your heart.
Going forward doing your best to do no harm to others and help who you can on the way.  Even though the mountain is tough, you have to climb it to eventually enjoy the view from the top.
Be well.
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Sometimes the pain is just too much to bear and cope with and to keep going for a very long time in that state is not possible. I wouldn’t easily describe it as something that is easy or hard, it is just a matter of time before the need to do something about it takes over. I do agree that the younger posters on this site really do need to give it time and allow their lives to unfold a little more, but they will need help and I hope that you seek it (youth).
The thing with pleasures and benefits are maybe that you cannot feel that anymore. I have felt NOTHING but pain for the last 11 months. I have been able to travel the world in my life, still do, have money, opportunities and possibilities to do all manner of things (travel, buy clothes, entertainment, everything). BUT, I feel nothing but pain, all the time, constantly and it hurts like nothing else I have ever felt.
They say there are solutions out there, but finding what works for you is not easy. Pulling up your socks just doesn’t cut it
You are correct Everlasting.
It is neither easy nor simple.
But it can be done for many.
And that is who this is aimed at.
Those who therapy, finding genuine friends and family. medicine, alternative means, and time will aid.
Those who have the hope and possibility of a solution.
I have very little time left.
And I want to spend it spreading hope.