I hate my life.
In school i am bullied.
 And my dad is an Alcoholics, my mom has cancer.Â
My only friend died last year (she was a dog).
 And SO MUCH MORE. It is just so much pain and i have no one to talk to and i have tried to commit suicide two times. But my sister cut me in the act. I just think that if i dont die now it will only get worse. And I would not want that.
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Hey,
Ive been through what youve been through; ive lost all my “friends” because they found out about me. but you know what? i actually got much better and happier when i found new friends. friends that actually stick up for you no matter how tough the situation is- my friends before….they werent real friends otherwise theyd try to HELP me instead of ditching me.
i think you just need friends you can trust and talk to. ill be here whenever you need that 🙂
Hi. You do have some difficult things to deal with in your life. It is hard when you are young because 1. The people who are your age are not experienced and mature and often don’t try to help each other and 2. You can’t see the way things will change as you get older and you feel very powerless over the circumstances of your life.
But, the good news is that you have the opportunity to have things get better. First, you should know that you are a special and worthwhile person regardless of how the immature people your age treat you and regardless of the fact that both of your parents are sick. If you believe that you are special and that you have God on your side no matter what happens in your life, I believe that your life will begin to get better and better. You get to choose who you are and who you want to become. If you truly believe in your heart that God loves you (he really does) there is no telling what he will help you to get through and to accomplish. If you can encourage yourself to make it through these difficult times by telling yourself good things about yourself, you will one day be a leader and you will do great things.
If you have the opportunity to find a good church where people love each other and where you can become a part of the community, that would be a good idea. Also, there is an organization called Alanon (www.alanon.com) that can help you to deal with your dad. There should be groups all over the world.
Look for these kinds of support and any other support you can find. You might also look around to see what other kids at school are loners and try to make friends with someone else who is kind of alone. That will help with the bullying. Also, bullies are usually the biggest cowards–and that’s why they bully people who seem vulnerable. I bet you could find books and/or stories (look on line) of people who were bullied when they were young who overcame that experience. You would be encouraged by reading their stories. You are a worthwhile person. Start telling yourself that and you will start believing it, no matter what anyone else says or does! Now you have 2 people who don’t even know you who are here for you! Thanks for sharing your story and good luck to you!