I don’t know where this post will take me, but i just need to write to take my mind off walking to thesupermarket and buying a binge fest. I have already eaten 6 bars of chocolate, 3 packet of crisps (potato chips?) 1 tub of ben and jerry icecream… Been for a run, had an extremely hot shower and my empty void is still there.. Add to that the half block of cheese i just ate and the two cheese toasties that are cooking..
I am also going to my dads for tea, his fridge is stockpiled with binge worthy food…. Argh… Anyone got any tips to stop a binge? Im really struggling.
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Hi
I wish I could help, I have gone the other way, not eating for days and days.
However, I have binged big time on alcohol and other minor addictions, as well as on negative thoughts (a bit abstract, but it is my OCD side of me, but still relevant).
Anyway, the only was I have found is to put myself to sleep, literally. Not too good though, because I abuse those tablets now (not aloud sleeping tablets anymore, but I have others that do the same thing but harder to OD on).
I also run long distances, take those endless showers and the void is still there. So I can relate to you.
Again, I self destruct and hurt myself to distraction. I hope that you can find something better. Do you still feel a rush when you binge?
Nah not really, i tend to binge then undereat for a few days then the cycle repeatsits self. Very rarely i get the rush, as such but it often makes me feel slightly better which feels worth it at the time… Then subsequentky the following days i worry about getting fat so i subconsciencely undereat to counterbalance.
I binge every day and never go days without eating to make up for it. I’m obese and get bigger every year. Food is the only thing that ever feels my void and nothing else I have tried gives me the same satisfaction so I’m afraid I don’t know what to say but you are not alone.
Jules x
We all do it, it’s okay and first off be okay with the fact that you’re doing your best…so cheers to that! Secondly, you may consider why you’re binging…what are you distracting yourself from that is bothering or hurting you. We do anything to not feel pain, through food, sex, drugs, and rock n’roll…again that’s okay. For me what it comes down to is accepting the pain I feel and being okay with, cause it’s part of me and not attempting to run away from it…just notice it and breathe. Ask yourself, what can I do that will continuously allow me to feel good, cause that’s the most important thing.
We do things cause we think we will feel better in the doing of it, so why not just choose to feel and think thoughts that allow that state to come about…takes practice and you’ll save a lot of money on food and indigestion…lol.
Simple breathing exercise….do it for 5 breaths how ever many times during the day you fee like.
Wiggle your toes, rub your fingers together (hands apart), breathe cold air through nose, and warm air out of your mouth….it’s been a miracle worker for me. Your oxygenating your brain and grounding/calming yourself at the same time. It allows you to be with you in the moment and not feel the need to be in a fight or flight mode.
Cheers, good luck!
If you read the reply, I’d be interested in knowing how it worked for you or anyone else that finds it allowed for a smoother flow.
If I do binge, I just puke afterwards.
A new one for me, but I guess my list of disorders just keeps on growing.
I used to puke all the time but now i can never be bothered to spend the effort. I had an operation on my stomach last year after my bowel got damaged and adhered its self to other mucles.. It was caused by my eating habbits or should i say lack of them!
@Jules : Im borderline underweight, i have a number in my head i cannot pass. I go into exercise overdrive if the scales get anywhere close..
@soft : thank you for your reply, i will try those next time, went for a run at my dads and kept out of the fridge! I have real body image issues, i feel like a beached whale, infact i am underweight.. Not by much though. I am quite pretty.. But i feel like a monstrosity, i get paranoid that people are staring, i feel lost and confused, i feel unwanted, unworthy and a burden. I feel forgotten and invisable.
Food is my safety net i guess.. Really i am just a scsred little girl sat in the corner clutching her teddy bear, hiding from the monsters that make us scream.
(ps sorry for the spelling, kind of hard typing on my ipad :-()
I am also nearly underweight, but think I am fat. I am also paranoid, think people stare at me and also unwanted. I think all of those feelings are normal when depression kicks in. I also have a number in my mind that I cannot get over as well as my weight I want to reach (just to hurt myself). Will be dead soon anyway, I guess.
Crimson I”m open to chatting on skype if you want. softsoul9 is my id. I coached a lot of people. Up to whatever you feel most comfortable with. In truth, whether you believe it or not you’re the opposite of how you described yourself…you’re worthy, loveable, kind, decent, gorgeous….not because I say so, it’s a simple truth. The more you are able to allow that belief to flow through you, the better you’ll feel…bit by bit…a belief is just something you tell yourself over and over again. Take care.