I have had bipolar or was diagnosed at 14 years old, i have tried many times to end my life. It has caused me to be hopitalized on more than one occasion. But not for the mental health issues but for the physical side affects. My bipolar is not controlled by meds and i do not see a phycitrist i go to my family doctor but they seem to think my personality makes me have bipolar? i did not think this was possible?. My family are very disspondent now and it is almost like her she gose again. But i am now 26 and i can no longer cope with normal interactions as i can not tell if my feelings are real. Every time i do try to commit suicide my family say they need me here but should i just stay here for them when every day is becoming more and more of a personal hell. They say i am selfish but am i? my thoughts are constantly of hurting my self or comminting suicide. I overdose in small amounts everyday with a range of meds but still wake up each day! when i say small amounts its more like a box of pills! I dont know why? i am at a very low eb at this moment in time so have taken to the routine of stock pileing meds. I have not really gone out of the house in a week and a half and even the thought terrifies me. But what should i do next? ride it out so i am manic for a few we
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We could talk, I can assist you clarify with all these issues. From that place you can make a decision that feels freeing and best for you. You can skype me..my id is softsoul9
Selfishness in terms of your own peace, and fulfillment is paramount and a positive thing, without exception!!! When family or anyone responds this way, what is activated in them is their fear of death…to understand death is to know what life and most do not have the courage to trust the process of learning that would come about from accepting that truth. Take good care.
Thank you, if only those around me could understand what it means it would help if we could talk about these issuse couse right now i feel as though i am on the brink. as though the dissicion has to made sonner rather than later. could we msn.
Remember, you are loved unconditionally…whether you feel it or not. We all do our best based on our circumstances. No one is expected to physically exist in a state that is not in alignment with the joy and fulfillment every human being is deserving of. You have free will and can always make whatever choice is best for you devoid of unnecessary projected fear from anyone!!! Is what you’re being told by others in support of your happiness or theirs? Feel me?
Msn is fine… just give me your chat id or email. I understand.
btw I’ve been on the brink many many times…do 5 breaths….wiggle your toes, rub your fingers (hands apart)…breathe in cold air through your nose & warm air out…it will calm and center you…you’ll feel better just doing it. Just do it, refrain from thinking about it. It’s a tool I keep in my back pocket and it works great!
can i send you my id privatley
pauld891 at gmail dot com
ok i have sent you a request
Didn’t receive.
jackiegleason711 at hotmail dot com You can try that too. Didn’t get anything on gmail.